Why have you been so irritably lately? I don’t understand! I’m worried about you! You need to get over yourself, because you are too much drama and you are stressing us out!
I am irritable because I do believe everyone is talking about me behind my back and making jokes to my face and behind my back! Don’t break the 4th Wall right? Don’t ever be honest with me about what you are all thinking and saying about me behind my back! We are done with being good family members and friends! This is just too much for us to handle! The man from college who came out of the woodwork because he is in love with you. The newfound notoriety that came as a result of this scandalous love triangle that came along with him. Everyone I know is lying to me and no one is helping to comfort me about what is really going on with me. Everyone’s jealousy and inability to feel empathy is becoming more and more apparent. You all want to deflate my ego and put me back in my place! What the F is so goddamn funny? You are not funny, at all! You are just mean and annoying! Why do you get a kick off on annoying me? I proclaimed here, before Trey even got the nerve to leave his wife, that we already needed couples therapy. Like the 10 year hesitation still gets to me. How severe are my mental health issues and can you accept them as they are? What is your threshold for the level of stress that you will come with me into your life? Will you welcome everything about me and my inner circle into your life? Do I have to step it up, in order for this union to become reality? Do I have to weight? I am convinced that me moving back in with my family and gaining all the weight back keep Trey at bay for years! His wife didn’t want kids! She never gained weight! She was there for him whenever he wanted her. I suspect he wants to make sure that I will always appreciate him and act appropriately with him and not embarrass or disrespect him. (After all he has done for me) ? Don’t take things so personally, right? Because that’s a drag to be called out for the things I say and do that mess with me. I do think you are messing around a lot right now, but you want to play it off, gaslight, so you never have to hear about it. I need to be perfect to show you that I am up to your standards and worth it? At the same time, I feel like you have been acting like a sneaky, immature asshole. I don’t get it. The man I wanted to marry in college, low key felt the same way (kind of), but wanted to put me on hold for 10 years or so. He didn’t keep in touch then he got pissed when I tried to move on and get married? How should I have known your intentions? Should I even regret moving past you? You eventually decided to check me out, before ever seriously stepping up to the plate. You have been married this whole time, but have been traveling down here from Santa Cruz, behind his wife’s back, throughout your entire marriage! And she is livid with me?! What? You are the perfect choice of person to ruin my life! After all this time, you started making motions to set things up, so we could be together. Like monitoring me from a distance, talking to everyone I know, including my female friends and family, (and my brother who I am pissed at too) instead of me. Creating a Truman show effect to my life. You are already talking to my girlfriends (about me) but not me? You are an asshole! You want to feel me out and mess with me, to see how angry I get. You are trying to make me jealous and see my reaction which is just straight up mental abuse. “I’m just teasing you!” I want you to know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of anger, narcissistic manipulation, and abuse. Good to know! I am not a lab rat, 🐀 who has no control over my circumstances and can be manipulated into different situations, to see their reactions! I should just use my notoriety to run off with the hottest and best guy I can find. You are already trying to portray yourself as Mr. Sensitivity, sweet, and romantic, to all the women I know. You are clearly bullshitting all of them, so I can never turn to them when things get tough. Zero sympathy will emit from these women, I know. They are already jealous. Is my friend/sibling trouble, my fault? They are all lying to me and withholding information. I will never trust anyone again because of you!! Having random women drive past me with you, to make me jealous, is so F’d up! I don’t think you have even filed for divorce, but you are already down here and (probably) dating random, local women. You want me to think that, at least. You get off on making me jealous. No man is worth ruining your own life for, even it’s Mr good looking blonde surfing doctor who you went to college with!