Attempted robbery or…?

Today my new next door neighbor had all these workers in his house fixing it up, unbeknownst to me. Two of these men casually walked through my backyard to the very back where my rear sliding glass door is and tried to open it. Seeing the men and not recognizing them, I got confused and started screaming that I was  going to call the cops, if they didn’t leave. Then they ran out of my backyard. The whole situation was stressful and embarrassing. I thought my house was being broken into, but apparently not. Tonight I was thinking about it and a voice chimed in.

Matteo: How would you feel if you innocently walked back into a house that you were working on, and got mixed up? What if you tried to open the door to that house and the Karen there screamed at you and threatened to call the cops? How humiliating for him and how stupid of you. Be forewarned. And don’t even think of mentioning this on stupid Nextdoor! Another brown-skinned man, attempting to do his job, humiliated and slandered, for an honest mistake. You were wise to  stop short of calling the cops this time, Karen. Be forewarned!

While relaxing in a hot bath

Maeve: Just so you know, Trey and I have oral sex a lot. That is why our relationship has been this hot for this long…and I never got pregnant. And you are so jealous! Be forewarned! 

Valentina: We hate you, so be forewarned, we are hexing you. It’s like the song Hotel California, “and still those voices keep calling from far away.” I am back in Venezuela. I couldn’t be further away from you but, at the same time, I am still right here, talking to you, and Im not going to stop. Be forewarned!

No offense to anyone else

 But that is how it’s done! Beautiful pics of people I don’t really know.

Daydream

I saw your handsome face 

Was it only a daydream 

Maybe I should go to sleep 

Only to wake and hopefully see you again 

I love your playfulness 

You tease

Maybe one day you will work up the courage 

To talk to me

One day the stars will align 

And the timing will be right

For us to become us

I am waiting patiently 

Things in your backyard that make you go hmmm

 What is this noisy bird trying to say? How about “Mom, where are you?” He sounds like he is in distress. Can birds be scared of the dark too?

 

When it’s finally fall…

When it’s finally fall and people start listening to my story about hexing and witchcraft.

Rant of the day

Maeve: You have no idea how much fun Trey and I have had together! We are both fun people! We have a lot in common! We are both sociable and friendly! We love meeting new people! We love to travel! The list goes on and on.

Maeve: I worked and worked out so hard to keep Trey happy! I didn’t pressure him to have any children and I remained physically fit, where other women had a bunch of babies and threw in the towel weight-wise. Why would Trey ever leave me? It makes no sense. I am fun and adventurous! We surfed together and made love in unusual places. I was game for anything. Trey Sanders is a fool  to leave me for you and that is a major understatement! Wait until he sees your fat naked body! Be forewarned! Well the good news is that he never will see you naked, because you are merely delusional. I can see you bitch but I wish that I couldn’t right now.

https://www.amazon.com/Voices-Danielle-Flore/dp/0692956964/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=danielle+flore+the+voices&qid=1630287856&sprefix=danielle+flore&sr=8-1

Maeve: and by the way, I would never promote your crappy, flop of a book amongst my vast social media following, even though it is inspired by moi, yours truly. Be forewarned!! Tee hee hee witch cackle 

Wonder (a poem)

I wonder what kind

Of life I would

Have led

If life was fair.

 

Thinking about Devo

 

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/music/story/2020-08-31/mark-mothersbaugh-devo-covid-19-coronavirus%3f_amp=true

I thought I saw one of the Mouthersbaugh brothers the other day. You never know.

Living the California dream

Speaking of someone who is actually living the California dream, I am definitely jealous of this. I don’t know her but I wish I was her. This woman looks like someone very familiar to me. 

How did Maeve learn to surf in the 5 or so years she has been in California? Unbelievable! Jealous!

Do you think I’m crazy…

 Or is this a beautiful butterfly?

So far away

I repeat the same sentiment 

I did over 30 years ago

When I met you in college 

Santa Cruz is an estimated 8 hour drive from here

Damn, why do you have to live so far away 

Why did I move south after college 

Instead of North

I ended my chances with you right there

We conveniently hooked up with 

Other people closer to us

Sigh

Boy Bye

Whenever I see you, Tony 

I wonder why

You are here

Trying to smile at me

I remember our times together 

You would call me up

For the fantastically, flattering booty call

And scream at me when I refused 

You would call me a bitch and a goldigger 

For wanting to go out on dates 

I deserve respect and a relationship first 

You were verbally abusive and raped me

So yeah, I have no idea what you are doing here

You have  a wife and kid back home too

I wish that I could stop seeing you 

You are nothing more than a bad memory 

Arm candy

I remember when 

I just wanted some hot arm candy

With bright blonde hair and beautiful blue eyes 

Oh wait…I still do

Why did I never attain

The California dream 

With the hot blonde surfer husband 

Maybe because I look more like someone from New Jersey?

“I’m looking California, feeling Minnesota?” -Soundgarden

Unfortunately the quote that defines me is:

“I’m Feeling California, looking New Jersey”

Everyone tells me this

Especially non-California natives

I seem like someone from the East Coast (New York or New Jersey) 

Not again! Don’t do this to me!

Is that you and Maeve? Don’t come down to Carlsbad to torture me! You can stay in Santa Cruz to do that!

I may be hypochondriac

Or maybe I just like talking to doctors. Anywho Tomorrow I have a dual follow up mammogram and ultrasound of my right breast. The voices have been wishing Cancer on me for years. Let’s see if all their witchcraft hexing worked! I will certainly keep you posted.

FYI My cancer scare is over as I got a clean bill of health this morning.

Well I was enjoying Taco Tuesday until…

Maeve: You disgust me! I hate you so much! Be forewarned. What are you thinking of doing about Trey Sanders? You are such a bitch for targeting my husband to be your soulmate! He’s not your soulmate! He’s my soulmate!

Valentina: Trey Sanders is and will always be Maeve’s soulmate…but get real. That is not my real name, you fake bitch! We are targeting you so be forewarned, as you are targeting Trey Sanders. Karma is a bitch!

Matteo’s bullshit Instagram page

Matteo: Are you looking at my Insta page again? Be forewarned. You should not be looking at it and criticizing it, if you know what’s best for you.

Me: It seems…so fake. So harmless. So far from the truth. It is filled with sunshine and puppy dogs. You’re a witch right?! You’re a witch, hiding your dastardly deeds, behind an innocent Instagram feed.

Matteo: Is it that hard to believe that, us Venezuelans, are good people, who are minding our own business, and are doing you no harm? This is on you totally. You are having a messed up, racist, delusional,  midlife crisis, so be forewarned. I am not speaking to you privately, in your mind. I am not the cause of your suffering. You are the cause of your suffering, so be forewarned! Anyway! Talk to you later. You can bet on that.

Someone recommended this song to me!

I have not taken a trip to the beach for soul searching purposes since I was off my medication in 2014. What do you think about when you are at the beach? Do you soulsearch or look for your soulmate? A little of both?

My sister was talking to me about visualization yesterday! Does visualizing what you want, help manifest it into reality? I need to do this; go to the beach to meditate and visualize finally connecting with my soulmate!

Erotomanic Fool (An original poem)

I can’t stop thinking about you 

Every love song I hear 

Reminds me of you 

I feel your presence 

I imagine that you are watching me

I see you everywhere 

In the passing cars

And on the beach 

Like a fool in love

I base my decision making 

On what choice would most improve 

My chance of ending up with you

Novelty ( A poem)

Ruminating over the past

Has haunted me since

I graduated college 

The novelty never wears off.

Change is Coming

Valentina: Something is happening, but that is not it. We are not hexing you, so be forewarned! You are a bitch, for trying to steal Maeve's husband. Leave it alone! I hate her so much! People hate you, so be forewarned. Change may be coming, but is it the change you want? Every change has repercussions and this is one of them. If you don't stay away from Maeve's husband, we are going reek havoc on your life. Leave it alone! 

If you're not careful

Big changes can creep

Up on you

Inch by inch

-Everhopeful

Valentina: The change you want, will never happen. Trey is blissfully married to his wife Maeve...and you are on the outskirts of his life looking in, via Facebook. What do their pictures tell you? What do they say to you? Single and available? Please! You are delusional!

But I don’t know how to play chess?!

 

I must go outside!

 

Back to school!

Valentina: You will hear from us tomorrow, as you drive your children to their first day of school. Bring on the stress!

Last night, a single voice crept in, anticipating my stress level would be high the next day. My three children started a new school year today and it was busy. Oddly enough, the next voice I heard wasn’t until dinner time, when I started to prepare food.

Maeve: You don’t cook, with love…like Maeve Sanders! You only wish you did. Ick What are you trying to make? 

That was about it though. We survived the first day of school today! Hooray!

He is straight chilling!

 

Clouds (a poem)

The clouds know

The depth of Loneliness,

Making it rain 

In moments of Happiness.

-The lone lonely loner

This dating website is a dumpster fire, as they say.

 https://www.nolongerlonely.com/

Who wants to date someone with a serious mental illness? Not me!

Matteo: That would be a hard pass for me.

Real

How can I accept your embraces

When our relationship died a premature death?

We did not become real, in this visit to earth;

All we have, can be taken away simply, by a strong wind;

My fate is at the mercy of the woman who is hexing me

Doctors propose that the psychiatric drugs being pumped through me, answer my problem.

Meanwhile, the medication is not helping to reduce you, to a feint memory.

Birthday brunch for my friend

 

OMG

Is this in Carlsbad? So jealous!

This is love! ❤️

 

Haunts ( A poem)

You probably made all

Those life decisions

The best you could

Including the one that haunts you

Doomed to be alone (a poem)

Doomed to be alone

I put my fantasy man on a throne

Although he keeps playing mind games 

With a little help from his friends 

This feels like 6 Degrees of Separation 

He and my numerous stalkers

Take me back in time

To good times and bad

I see people from my past

Sometimes I have to take a double take

Is that who I think it is

I can’t believe my eyes

Some of you just like to look

Wishing you were the soulmate in my book

Sometimes I wonder 

Who are the people looking back at me 

Nothing more than my mental mess

Waiting for that happy ending 

I created you

But I don’t know the real you

I hope to finally meet and connect with you 

For now I lie in wait

For my man to leave his precious life and wife

And join me in mine

I know that I will be single for life

Nothing more than a figment of my imagination 

I should take him off this throne

Stuck in a strange zone

Doomed to be alone 

Trey: I have been dropping hints left and right and you call me a stalker in your poem? And where did you get that weird name Trey? Not my name! 

(Later in the evening)

Trey: We’re good

(Even later)

Trey: Why would you call me a stalker though?

Maeve: His “epic” wife and life, you mean? Trey Sanders isn’t going anywhere with you, so be forewarned!

I found a private place…

 We could go there sometime. If you could go back in time, would you go into someone’s treehouse with your partner? 

No seriously…these darn kids have been sneaking into my neighbors treehouse to do God knows what?!

Salt (A poem)

I think I’ll spend the day

Beating myself up over

Things that will never become reality 

A bit of salt in the wound.

Life in a cloud

When you live life in a cloud, it is hard to see what is missing in your life, until the sun comes shining through and the morning rain has brought to you sad memories

 

Chilling in the jacuzzi.

 Deep thoughts: Is summer really ending?

Saturday night

 

Jumping into the fire

Of all the voices I hear 

I love yours the best

I hate the rest

Of all the things I regret 

Running away from you has haunted me the most 

Of all the things I fear

It’s not ever having you here 

I cannot accept that our time has passed 

And that you are nothing more 

Than a haunting ghost 

Of all the things I desire

I dream of us together jumping into the fire

We may have done it before 

But we didn’t do it together 

There is only one way to find out

If we were meant to be together 

And that is for both of us to take a giant step forward 

Palindrome Rhyme

Let not evil,

Make you live,

But evol,

To love.

Come on? That was a good one. I didn’t write it. Just sharing.

Chase me!

 

Valentina: I have to talk to you. You wishing Trey a happy birthday is really stupid. You are outside of his social circle. He could care less if you wish him Happy birthday or not! He and Maeve had a wonderful birthday celebration yesterday, with plenty of sex, so be forewarned. I hate you, so be forewarned. We practice witchcraft and we will be hexing you for as long as we want. Be forewarned! I hope that you are jealous and that your breasts are…cancerous.

Defeated ( A poem)

I feel defeated,

But I wasn’t

Competing in anything.

Not even a bronze for me.

Then there was that time in Dublin…

 

Best wishes to you!!

 Air kisses!!

I could write a book about over sharing

 Oh wait! I did write a book that was basically me over sharing! lol 

I always wonder about the fragility of life

 What if I pass on before achieving my dreams? What will happen to my family? Friends? And the man who this blog is basically dedicated to, my soulmate and dream lover whose name remains a secret. I am having a bit of a cancer scare today and wish that I had a radiologist friend to speak to about this. Basically I had a mammogram performed and then want me to get an ultrasound of my right breast now. Pray for me please!

Maeve: Karma’s a bitch, so be forewarned! I do wish cancer on you for all you have done. Ha!

 

That time in 2006…

That time I saw U2 in Milan with you! (Never happened, but that’s beside the point) All I Want Is You! Love this! ❤️ This was actually my sister and her husband‘s wedding song. I am stealing it from her here!

It’s too crazy to travel anywhere now. I am staying put right where I am. My heart is in Milano though, with my fantasy soulmate and U2!

Woo hoo!

 I have lost 19 lbs since last July, so maybe all those annoying workout pictures/videos that people post on Facebook have had some effect on me. Like they say, don’t hate, congratulate or motivate or whatever! I crush, while you sleep! lol 

Cured (A poem)

I feel so clear headed

Maybe I’m cured,

I should come off meds and

End up in the hospital to make sure.

(No no no! Never again!)