She hides in her Mercedes.

 She drives a Mercedes that her father gifted her. She hides in it. It is part of the wealthy image that she wants to project. At the same time, she is ungrateful for the Mercedes. It is merely an old hand-me-down. It is not the Mercedes of her dreams. It is merely a prop that she is using in the meantime, until she can afford the luxury vehicle of her dreams. 

At this point in time, she has a long way to go, to acquire her dream car. She has no job. She has not worked for many years. She has no rich husband, but she is accepting applications. She believes that to attract wealth, you must be the picture of wealth. She plays the part. Much of the monthly allowance, gifted to her by father, is spent on creating her character and playing the part of a wealthy woman. She practices manifestation. 

There appears to be a roadblock in her path, and it’s not the threat of losing her father’s paycheck. Maybe her father’s paycheck is her roadblock? 

If she doesn’t get motivated to leave the house, to go to work and to create a community for herself, will she ever find love, success, and happiness? Will she waste away in her home alone? Or is what she wants, to remain fully financially supported by her father, the only way for her? 

She may not find all that she desires, even if she musters the strength and motivation to leave her house. It will take energy, self confidence, mental sharpness, and social skills, to get out there and succeed in her endeavors. 

She needs to fine tune the skills necessary to attract, influence, befriend, and work harmoniously with other people. These skills are not sharpened doing as she has been doing for the past 5+ years. She has just been sitting alone in her home, only reaching out to bicker, beg and fight for financial handouts. 

If my magic worked, we wouldn’t be in this situation. I could actually help her. I pray that she pulls herself out of her safe space, far enough to make friends, find romantic love, and to be able financially support herself again! I pray that the road opens for her and that it is a smooth road ahead! 

We need to do something for ourselves. Whether it be eBay, uber, DoorDash, instacart. I don’t care what people think, at this point. My Dad used to call himself a glorified plumber and the only plumber in Brentwood, because that was part of his job and how he saved his money. Why hire someone else, for what you are capable of doing yourself? Don’t be surprised if you see me doing instacart or some other side hustle people scoff at. I don’t think I really care what people think at this point.

I’ve been thinking a lot about Nick Reiner and his Sanpaku eyes

 Everyone has been talking about Nick Reiner having sanpaku eyes. Not everyone in active psychosis has these crazy eyes. I was looking at old photos to see if Nick always had sanpaku eyes or did they change when he started experimenting with drugs and triggering psychosis, in his young life. I do think the movie his parents made about him had to be extremely uncomfortable and triggering for him to be a part of. It was basically talking about he was the problem child and how difficult it was raising him. He was an expert on the situation and he was the center of the film. He was paid for his contributions and appearances, (which he probably spent on drugs), so he voluntarily took part. He had to have a lot of depression, insecurities, anger,  and jealousy based on being viewed as the problematic child. 

If he wanted to be a filmmaker, like his Dad, or have a strong voice in this film, I could see him being constantly overrode and outshined. He probably hated living in the shadow of his father. He knew he was the black sheep of the family. He did the work and the appearances for the money, but what an awkward, embarrassing, uncomfortable experience! I really saw it in his eyes, in the video clips and photos from that publicity tour! Yikes! He was definitely triggered and psychotic then. It’s a very sad story. His other two siblings seem basically perfect. They all seem so nice too! I think he should remain, either in a mental hospital or in prison, because I worry that he is coming for his two siblings next, out of the worst kind of sibling rivalry. It’s a terrible situation! 

I have seen the hiccups and backfires that can come, with the tough love approach, to helping family members with mental health and substance abuse issues. Drug addiction is a terrible never ending roller coaster ride, for the whole family, as is mental illness, when the individual doesn’t accept the intervention help.

Her witch boho scarf wraps

 If you know you know that witches wear head scarves to hide that they are throwing work at people. They don’t want their work detected. They think that wearing a headscarf will somehow protect their witchcraft, when in fact, it just screams to the world that they are witches. Coming from someone who knows a thing or two about witchcraft, that is what L is doing, when she adds a headscarf to her gym ensemble.

Like my brother joked, it’s the same as, psychotic people holding tin foil up, to protect them from radiation or whatever they think is coming out of the sky. All that holding up the tin foil does, is show to everyone else that this individual has some type of mental problem.

That being said, L thinks she’s hot shit wearing her psychedelic scarf head wraps to the gym, where they always photograph her doing her workout and then post it on their website. Maybe I should join a gym to get those perfectly posed, brag worthy, bs photos to show off on social media?

Bathing my new crystal!

 Here is a picture of me bathing the smoky quartz crystal I just birthed and brought home. What a beautiful day!

Isn't she lovely?

These dresses will go with me to Hawaii.

I am manifesting a beautiful vacation to Hawaii that will include a beautiful proposal and a beautiful private wedding ceremony for me and my handsome, surfer, doctor, drummer, college sweetheart husband!

Introducing the new Dr. & Mrs. KMS!

E: Talk about a small wedding.

R: Very small! Party of one!

F: He’s not even there!

L: He never will be! She can’t get that through her head, but I’m not worried.

A conversation that I had with my brother Dominic…Esteban and Rodrigo this afternoon

 Dominic: So you have been radio silent lately. What have you been up to?

Me: I don’t know. I’ve been busy with my kids starting school and transitioning to college. I’m addicted to Temu and TikTok, so I’ve been busy with that. I used to have a friend group, but they sort of fell by the wayside. It’s disappointing. I’m a little lonely, but it is what it is.

Dominic: Well, join the club!

Esteban: Yeah, join the club. No, seriously, I have friends. 

Rodrigo: We have lots of friends actually, but we can see why you all don’t.

Come with me to a whimsical, magical fairy festival!

 

My festival dress has arrived! I do have a ticket to OhanaFest this fall, but I will not be wearing this. It’s fun to play dress up. I have never been to Coachella or Burning Man. I don’t think I ever will. I would rather be looking and feeling my best, with an ocean breeze, rather than burning up and covered in mud. 

I am enjoying all of the witchy and whimsical Summerween festivals and markets happening right now this summer!