I would put Keith in my mirror for him to see how much pain and trouble he has caused me with his flirtations, but I don’t want to hurt him. He so carefully hides his mischievous side and his sexual dissatisfaction so well! He has just been a pig really, with a terrible wandering eye, but he hides it so well. He lies to himself. This is really about getting more waves and more time to surf in Santa Cruz. Deep down he loves his life in Santa Cruz, surfing and playing music, more than his wife, but that’s her problem. She’s just there with him, taking up space. It is crazy that he is living his best life in Santa Cruz surfing and playing music, while I am down here in Carlsbad fighting off his crazy wife’s cousins and he doesn’t give a rip. He’s been no help and he is a total stalker.
I’m just attracted to him unfortunately. He’s very cute and doing so well in life, that I am flattered to see him constantly coming down here to flirt with me. He never got over me, I guess. He really didn’t want children though. He just wants to be Peter Pan his whole life! He knows he made the right choice for that lifestyle. I, on the other hand, wanted children and I don’t regret having my children one bit! I love and cherish my children. I have a pretty cushy life all around too! So, today I release Keith and all his worthlessness back to his bitch/witch wife! Help me pray that he gets over me and quits stalking me, so that I can get over him! Amen!
It’s another beautiful day in San Diego! I’m wearing shorts although you can’t see them in these pictures. I’m wearing a protection braid again and a selenite wand necklace to help keep me relaxed today.
Hiding in the shadows. The ball-less wonder! If he wanted to get serious with me, he would have come out of the woodwork long ago. Instead he joined a band with his wife’s gym rat friends? He cares too much much what people in his community think, to follow his heart and take a chance on me. Yes, for me too, it would likely be more of the same. What am I trading in? A condescending intellectual for another? Another man child? An extremely self centered person? A man who doesn’t contribute to the household chores? A man who mentally and emotionally checks out of his marriage? A man who takes his wife for granted? I have children and he has none. I don’t think he ever wanted children and so doesn’t feel it would be an equal trade off. And he’d possibly an attention whore/musician/narcissist on top of all that? It’s a lot of trouble to swap husbands for basically the same guy, with a few new daunting twists, like he has a wandering eye and restlessly flirts with other women! I don’t know witchcraft, so I couldn’t keep my jealousy and controlling ways a secret. That would drive me crazy and I wouldn’t stand for it! He would find out really quickly that I am the jealous type. I want him for myself, but what a mind fuck it would be for him to disrespect me like that? L just plays it off and controls him with magic. I’m better off alone than being stuck on a roller coaster ride with him! Amen!
Meanwhile in Carlsbad, I am still stuck being monitored and hexed by L’s nasty cousins, who live close to me. Why don’t they move up to fabulous Santa Cruz to better keep an eye on K? Holy hell! It’s not fair! This is K’s fault for stalking me anyway! Like I said on my Amazon book page, this may be the most unbelievable true story ever written. It may seem like a psychotic delusion, because it seems unbelievable, and no one will admit to their doings, but the things I am experiencing are real. The individuals involved are just two faced liars, hiding behind good-natured and nice facades! You would never guess the darkness, cunningness, and deception that lies within them! They live very comfortably behind their masks! K was too good to be true anyway. He is an emotionally unavailable, cheating husband who stalks other women. I just invented a romantic and attractive storyline for him, to explain to myself why he keeps stalking me!
