To those who celebrate All Souls Day…

 I hope you had a meaningful day of reverence and spiritual connection. Im especially thinking about my mother and honoring her today. I love her. I miss her. I am still in awe of her. I would like to be with her again one day. 

I have been trying to cook recipes and wondering what would my Mom add to make this taste better? Sugar? Cream cheese? Worschester sauce? She loved lemon meringue pie, but I did not buy one for today, because we just had Halloween. I am trying to get my diet back on track.

A family friend once told my Mom that she was like a hothouse flower, who needed to be moved into the sunlight outdoors. I felt like her today, wanting to be comfortable inside. It’s more comfortable for me to stay in my room and in my shell too.

I have a picture of my grandmother too. My father’s mother was a widower for a very long time. She had a sad childhood and experienced a lot of loneliness throughout her life I feel. Despite having 5 children, and many more grandchildren, she seemed lonely. After losing her husband and youngest son, her children grew up and moved out, she was alone a lot of the time in her house. Looking back I wish that I had visited her more because she was so sweet and appreciated my company. I knew she loved me and I loved her.

Too much solitude can trigger depression. I need to change up my surroundings, get active outside, and socialize with people too!  So I did venture into the backyard today. It was still damp and kind of cold from the rain. It would have been good for my Mom to push herself to do these things. I only have control over myself though, and what I do, in the present. So today I went outside…briefly. 

Call to Hekate!

Hekate, Goddess of the night. 

Guardian of the crossroads. 

I call upon you at this sacred time of Samhain to ask for help, 

In finding justice for the years that I have been a victim of malicious magic.

I would like a breakthrough in my case.

For people to see me and believe me.

For legal and criminal consequences to be brought upon the individuals hexing me.

As the veil thins, I seek your guidance and wisdom. 

Illuminate my path and help me navigate the mysteries that lie ahead.

Thank you Hekate, for your guidance! Let your light guide my way!

Happy Halloween/Samhain! She waited so long for her lover to return to her and she is still waiting…

Lighting candles and casting spells, as the moon meets seven sisters.

 I thought that tonight was a great night to use my Moonlight & Sage Calypso spiritual oil. I am manifesting my transformation into a youthful, sexy, and beautiful sea nymph. For women with a weakness for surfers, this is the perfect oil. Make me into a beautiful sea siren/mermaid to attract KMS, my handsome surfer! 

I just googled who Calypso is and I actually wasn’t impressed. She was a blonde haired “goddess” who used lies and magic trickery to keep a man, against his will, for 7 years. He was miserable the entire time though and he eventually got help to be freed from her. He finally snapped out of it! What a waste of time, for a pathetic woman! So I don’t think I will wear the Calypso oil with any intention again. Yuck! It does smell nice though and no shade to the famous spiritual helper Anastasia of Moonlight and Sage. I don’t want to be my nemesis, LRS, at this point, because she is a total loser!

Sunday Night Sweetening spell & Hunter Full Moon/5 planet retrograde ritual.

May my words carry sweetness.

May my presence attract kindness and respect.

May my aura exude friendliness, openness, and earthiness.

 May others’ good thoughts of me, follow me wherever I go. 

I was watching a TikTok of a special Moonlight & Sage spiritual oil review and this woman credited her spell oil, “Face Card Never Declines,” for successfully helping her to appear friendly and unintimidating to a certain group of people that she was interacting with. She explained that she needed them to like her, but that she wasn’t really that way at all. She used the spell oil to soften the rough edges of her face and of her exterior demeanor. I found this very interesting! She definitely sold me on purchasing this particular oil!

Sweetening spells could be very beneficial to me, as well. I can definitely come across scoff, standoffish, intimidating, maybe? I may have resting bitch face, as the expression goes. First impressions can be challenging for me. I want people to like me. I want them to think that I am nice, friendly, and attractive too. I wonder if a sweetening spell would help me? I do think that it’s possible that the F.U’s have used these methods to appear likable, attractive, competent, and innocent, when really it’s all an illusion.

In this picture, I am manifesting my own sweetness or rather, a sweet demeanor, under this full moon. While reciting a sweetening spell, I am massaging a homemade honey, cinnamon, sugar balm all over my hands. And so it is! Happy Full Moon Fever!

Remember your graveyard etiquette…

 

Please leave the graveyard dirt for the dearly departed. After your visit, if there happens to be any dirt lodged in the grooves of your shoe, than you are off and running. I honestly need all the help I can get! Here are some photos from my recent trip to Old Town, San Diego. Respectfully, I enjoyed celebrating the Dia de Los Muertos celebration!

Pumpkin spice and everything nice!

 Does anyone else wear orange in October anymore? I personally am loving this whole month long progression to Halloween. I am going to do as much witchcraft as I can, to vibe with this and to live fully in the spirit of Halloween. What a great time to do witchcraft and to hex you right back!

Ok seriously, just joking there. I don’t know how to do any retribution spells or malicious magic. I wouldn’t want to get anything off the ground and have it backfire, like it has, in so many ways for the F.U.’s. 

L’s love spells backfired. The boys cant get work surfing or taking pictures for the WSL. HA HA! 

Your smile is a veil.

                                                              

Wearing nothing but a smile. 

What did you say? I’m a what? I’m dressing like a what? Get ready for much more of that! I could care less what you say! Looking like you’re about to marry Beetlejuice in your wedding guest dress! 

I’m simply lounging at home here…and calling on my good friend, Hekate!

Hail Hekate, Queen of the Crossroads!

Torchbearer of the night! 

And guardian of the thresholds!

Keeper of the keys!

Guide my path through the shadows and illuminate my way with your divine light!

Grant me wisdom at every crossroad and protection in the dark!

Game time!

 Let’s play a game! Use your best guess. Which of the guys in the picture below, would you guess has been hexing me since this was taken in 2014?

The October New Moon 10/10 portal

On this October new moon 10/10 portal, I call upon the goddess Hecate to return all malefic energy sent my way, back to the house from which it came! May all harm be returned to my enemies threefold! Goddess Hecate, keeper of keys, please open my road and guide my path. Please provide me with the wisdom necessary to move forward in my journey. Please protect me from the malicious energy entering me and surrounding me!

 

Thursday night’s magic is for overcoming obstacles!

And I decided to do some banishing work too! Surprise! Bye, bitches! Get out of my life! Get out of my head! Get out of me, those around me, and my personal life, once and for all! 

“So you would never shop at Walmart? You would never step foot in Walmart? Well, have fun inside Walmart, bitches! You’re forever trapped in Walmart now!” (Just a little inside joke between me and the F.U’s!)

My Moonlight and Sage Haul!

 

Thank you to the amazing Anastasia of Moonlight and Sage in Oceanside for your spiritual help!

Here I am trying on the Stevie Nicks/Fleetwood Mac-inspired spell oil “Silver Springs” from Moonlight and Sage! I love the smell and the whole vibe of this!

October 1st Rituals

                                                                      

  Be gone, bitches!!

And making good use of my moon water!

Bring in only good and positive things!

I don’t know if this is mad photoshopping or I am hallucinating?

 But does every witch in Santa Cruz look just like my nemesis, Lee? You have to really zoom in,

but yeah a lot of doppelgängers and likeminded women up there. Lee forced me into this, because that sneaky bitch and her creepy cousins thought they were just going to do whatever they wanted to me, without any consequences. Hell to the no! I’m hexing you right back, bitches! Lee probably goes to these witch walks. She’s definitely there in spirit!

Good morning to my spirit guides!

 Here is a midweek spell.

I ask my spirit guides to help me guide my words for better self expression and self advocacy

Help guard my path 

Open my thoughts to clarity and my voice to truth 

Let my steps follow wisdom

And my words land with purpose 

May I listen as deeply as I speak 

And may my road remain clear 

Celebrating and harnessing the energy of this Harvest Full Moon!

I celebrate the natural beauty of this moment before dawn, and today’s powerful full moon! I am starting off the morning with a little meditation and prayer! I use this smoke, to clear away any negative energy and monitoring spirits. I reach out to God and to my guardian angels, for help and guidance. I pray for help in navigating the stress and conflict in my life. Please help me to be more understanding, patient, and loving with others. Please help me to see snakes “in the wild” and to steer clear from them. 

Please help to open the road for me and my family members, who may be under spiritual attack. Please clear the path to success, peace, love, and happiness! I pray that my enemies stop their malicious magic attacks on me and on those around me. Lord, please heal me of my paranoia and delusions, if that is all this is. Thank you for all of my blessings! Please bring me peace and make me a channel of your peace! Amen!

I guess I dodged a bullet?

 

So I admit that I picked the guy in college, with the best looks, nice seeming, upwardly mobile, great major, who seemed obsessed with me, to zero in on. I invented a future with him, without knowing much about him, in reality. He never even told me his last name! He was super secretive and distant. Then he’d come in out of nowhere and want a random hookup. He didn’t see me as girlfriend material or maybe he just didn’t want to be tied down with a girlfriend back then. Being put on the back burner, to maybe come around years later to pursue, sucks and was always a dealbreaker for me. Like how many girls do you have to screw in the meantime? I didn’t wait for him, so why did I start kicking myself, for doing that later?

 And he just continued to stalk me, out of a lack of impulse control and a wandering eye. He wanted someone who idolized him like “oh what a hot sexy musician! He’s the drummer in a band!!” After the whole Santeria fiasco he got me in with his psycho in-laws, he decided he didn’t give a shit about me, about the fact that his wife is a witch, and is hexing me. So he ultimately stayed with his wife! Aaargh! 

Now she gets to play groupie for him and they don’t have any kids, so he can pick up his drumsticks and gig around Santa Cruz, whenever he wants. On the bright side, at least I don’t have to move to Santa Cruz now. It honestly sounds like such a nutty place! LOL Meanwhile in Santa Cruz…

I know you do! I feel the love!

 

She hides in her Mercedes.

 She drives a Mercedes that her father gifted her. She hides in it. It is part of the wealthy image that she wants to project. At the same time, she is ungrateful for the Mercedes. It is merely an old hand-me-down. It is not the Mercedes of her dreams. It is merely a prop that she is using in the meantime, until she can afford the luxury vehicle of her dreams. 

At this point in time, she has a long way to go, to acquire her dream car. She has no job. She has not worked for many years. She has no rich husband, but she is accepting applications. She believes that to attract wealth, you must be the picture of wealth. She plays the part. Much of the monthly allowance, gifted to her by father, is spent on creating her character and playing the part of a wealthy woman. She practices manifestation. 

There appears to be a roadblock in her path, and it’s not the threat of losing her father’s paycheck. Maybe her father’s paycheck is her roadblock? 

If she doesn’t get motivated to leave the house, to go to work and to create a community for herself, will she ever find love, success, and happiness? Will she waste away in her home alone? Or is what she wants, to remain fully financially supported by her father, the only way for her? 

She may not find all that she desires, even if she musters the strength and motivation to leave her house. It will take energy, self confidence, mental sharpness, and social skills, to get out there and succeed in her endeavors. 

She needs to fine tune the skills necessary to attract, influence, befriend, and work harmoniously with other people. These skills are not sharpened doing as she has been doing for the past 5+ years. She has just been sitting alone in her home, only reaching out to bicker, beg and fight for financial handouts. 

If my magic worked, we wouldn’t be in this situation. I could actually help her. I pray that she pulls herself out of her safe space, far enough to make friends, find romantic love, and to be able financially support herself again! I pray that the road opens for her and that it is a smooth road ahead! 

We need to do something for ourselves. Whether it be eBay, uber, DoorDash, instacart. I don’t care what people think, at this point. My Dad used to call himself a glorified plumber and the only plumber in Brentwood, because that was part of his job and how he saved his money. Why hire someone else, for what you are capable of doing yourself? Don’t be surprised if you see me doing instacart or some other side hustle people scoff at. I don’t think I really care what people think at this point.

I’ve been thinking a lot about Nick Reiner and his Sanpaku eyes

 Everyone has been talking about Nick Reiner having sanpaku eyes. Not everyone in active psychosis has these crazy eyes. I was looking at old photos to see if Nick always had sanpaku eyes or did they change when he started experimenting with drugs and triggering psychosis, in his young life. I do think the movie his parents made about him had to be extremely uncomfortable and triggering for him to be a part of. It was basically talking about he was the problem child and how difficult it was raising him. He was an expert on the situation and he was the center of the film. He was paid for his contributions and appearances, (which he probably spent on drugs), so he voluntarily took part. He had to have a lot of depression, insecurities, anger,  and jealousy based on being viewed as the problematic child. 

If he wanted to be a filmmaker, like his Dad, or have a strong voice in this film, I could see him being constantly overrode and outshined. He probably hated living in the shadow of his father. He knew he was the black sheep of the family. He did the work and the appearances for the money, but what an awkward, embarrassing, uncomfortable experience! I really saw it in his eyes, in the video clips and photos from that publicity tour! Yikes! He was definitely triggered and psychotic then. It’s a very sad story. His other two siblings seem basically perfect. They all seem so nice too! I think he should remain, either in a mental hospital or in prison, because I worry that he is coming for his two siblings next, out of the worst kind of sibling rivalry. It’s a terrible situation! 

I have seen the hiccups and backfires that can come, with the tough love approach, to helping family members with mental health and substance abuse issues. Drug addiction is a terrible never ending roller coaster ride, for the whole family, as is mental illness, when the individual doesn’t accept the intervention help.

Her witch boho scarf wraps

 If you know you know that witches wear head scarves to hide that they are throwing work at people. They don’t want their work detected. They think that wearing a headscarf will somehow protect their witchcraft, when in fact, it just screams to the world that they are witches. Coming from someone who knows a thing or two about witchcraft, that is what L is doing, when she adds a headscarf to her gym ensemble.

Like my brother joked, it’s the same as, psychotic people holding tin foil up, to protect them from radiation or whatever they think is coming out of the sky. All that holding up the tin foil does, is show to everyone else that this individual has some type of mental problem.

That being said, L thinks she’s hot shit wearing her psychedelic scarf head wraps to the gym, where they always photograph her doing her workout and then post it on their website. Maybe I should join a gym to get those perfectly posed, brag worthy, bs photos to show off on social media?

Bathing my new crystal!

 Here is a picture of me bathing the smoky quartz crystal I just birthed and brought home. What a beautiful day!

Isn't she lovely?

These dresses will go with me to Hawaii.

I am manifesting a beautiful vacation to Hawaii that will include a beautiful proposal and a beautiful private wedding ceremony for me and my handsome, surfer, doctor, drummer, college sweetheart husband!

Introducing the new Dr. & Mrs. KMS!

E: Talk about a small wedding.

R: Very small! Party of one!

F: He’s not even there!

L: He never will be! She can’t get that through her head, but I’m not worried.

A conversation that I had with my brother Dominic…Esteban and Rodrigo this afternoon

 Dominic: So you have been radio silent lately. What have you been up to?

Me: I don’t know. I’ve been busy with my kids starting school and transitioning to college. I’m addicted to Temu and TikTok, so I’ve been busy with that. I used to have a friend group, but they sort of fell by the wayside. It’s disappointing. I’m a little lonely, but it is what it is.

Dominic: Well, join the club!

Esteban: Yeah, join the club. No, seriously, I have friends. 

Rodrigo: We have lots of friends actually, but we can see why you all don’t.

Come with me to a whimsical, magical fairy festival!

 

My festival dress has arrived! I do have a ticket to OhanaFest this fall, but I will not be wearing this. It’s fun to play dress up. I have never been to Coachella or Burning Man. I don’t think I ever will. I would rather be looking and feeling my best, with an ocean breeze, rather than burning up and covered in mud. 

I am enjoying all of the witchy and whimsical Summerween festivals and markets happening right now this summer!