I guess that I am a sorceress! Top that, witches! Happy Halloween!!

Watch out for this house!

Hope your Halloween is winding down peacefully!

Huh? I am not from Northern California and do not understand this joke. Can someone please explain this to me, so I can laugh too?

I wrote and read my mother’s eulogy yesterday at her funeral. I got so many compliments on it that it went to my head a bit . Unfortunately after watching this video all I can say is, dang, my legs look chubby. Oh well! LOL

Thank you to my friend Olga for posting this! She is a good Catholic woman! Unfortunately for you, the pictures below are your idea of a good time and the perfect wedding ceremony for you! LOL

Fun with Halloween filters. What should I dress up as this Halloween?

Ms.Wimbich is an American writer living in Scotland...and she's a witch!

https://www.nytimes.com/2019/10/25/opinion/sunday/thar-be-witches-and-us.html

I have a smartphone, which keeps pulling up tons of stories about witchcraft. Aside from myself, witchcraft is all the rage. Because I am a good Catholic girl, I plan on ascending to heaven after death!

My voices talk about hexing and Santeria all the time though. I honestly don’t think I even knew what a hex was or ever heard the term, before my voices started taunting me about it. That is a curious thing!

My book about Santeria, "The Voices," came out a few years ago. The difference is that I was not glorifying witchcraft in my book. As a victim of witchcraft, I do not think that hexing other people is the "coolest thing ever." I know what my devout Catholic relatives would say about the rising popularity of witchcraft, they would say that it is a work of the devil!

Quit hexing me, witches!

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.nytimes.com/2019/10/24/books/peak-witch.amp.html

LOL See, I can be spiritual too! I just don’t hex people!

Will you marry me?

I take it, that's a no? Or a nose?

Stop and smell the roses...

I guess that I am feeling better about my mother's passing, because I am about to complain about something frivolous that my mother did in the early 1980's. Someone on my favorite therapy site just asked what piece of clothing that you were forced to wear as a child, did you most hate? Well I resented my Catholic school uniform, which I thought was an excuse not to buy your kids cute clothes. As a child, we were struggling to make ends meet and my mom did not have the time or money to include us in a clothes shopping experience. I was the youngest of four children and wore mostly hand-me-downs. But I always felt like I did not keep up with our neighbors and friends who wore stylish clothes.

So lacking any cute clothes, I scofffed when my mother bought me a pair of leg warmers one Christmas. I actually cried over it. Where was the outfit? I just got a pair of "joke" leg warmers. Maybe it is because I was never Jane Fonda or Christie Brinkley. I was not heavy into working out and did not have the outfit to match. (Not that I would ever wear this. It is a little tight.)

Even at Christmas time in Southern California, the leg warmers were a little...warm. I didn't like my legs being any warmer than they already were. Aside from never reading my Christmas lists and buying me a lot of stuff that I didn't appreciate, I had a great mother who I will always love and miss every day.

Am I just like my ex-mother-in-law who still complains about her dead husband 15 years after his death? I guess so.

Esteban: I could care less about your mother's passing! Be forewarned!

If anyone tunes in here specifically to read about what the voices are saying to me, I will have much more dialogue on Tuesday when I drive up to Los Angeles for my mother's funeral.

My mother passed away last Friday at 12:30 pm. Now I can pray to her whenever I  want. Thinking of you Mom!

Is the demonetization of this account really a result of invalid traffic as google says? It is a case of the old "unintentional clicks" excuse! So I was talking on schizophrenia.com about how my google blogger account has always been demonetized (for reasons unknown) and I got some interesting feedback. Here is a screenshot of someone’s response to that.

This song creeps me out! Karma Police. Thanks for nothing! I guess the bad karma is coming back your way right about now.

#mood

There is something seriously wrong with you!

Not even close...I am more like Lisa from Weird Science.

College (UCSB) meme

There may be some truth to this study. When my voices were the most persecutory, I was completely socially marginalized, basically friendless.

https://www.cambridge.org/core/journals/psychological-medicine/article/div-classtitlethe-power-and-omnipotence-of-voices-subordination-and-entrapment-by-voices-and-significant-othersdiv/F0348F826D3B4480B0A71E405A725F64#

As usual...don’t ask what I am doing. LOL Just me trying to be edgy! I know this is inappropriately timed, but here I am gearing up for Halloween! Boo! 🎃

Will I go crazy for candy this Halloween? I consulted a magic eight ball which said, "it is decidedly so."

What is happening? Why aren’t doctors catching cancer until it is too late? This is what happened to my mother.

https://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/us_5d9d9d4fe4b06ddfc510d03f?test_ad=readmo_test

Or guys named Keith...

Click on the link below to read about dating as a  “witch astrologer.” I never thought of astrology as witchcraft. I would have the same fears and questions if someone told me that they were a real witch. Dating is tough enough. Glad that I am not a witch or single for that matter!

https://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/a29413648/dating-as-a-witch-astrologer/

Update on my mom: the hospice worker said just now that “this is what death sounds like.” He gave my mother hours to live. I am busy with my kids and will likely miss her final hours. I am sad, but I know that my parents understand.

These are the signs of death as given to us by hospice. A little light reading...

Tonight I watched the movie "You don't know Jack," the biopic about Dr. Jack Kevorkian. To read more about this man, click on the link below.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jack_Kevorkian

My husband is from Michigan, as Dr Kevorkian was. I married a man from Michigan, yet I have never been there myself. When my husband tells me about Michigan, why is it always some horrible story like this? LOL

You Don't Know Jack raises an interesting question about doctor-assisted suicide. Is it ever ok? I was raised Catholic, so that would be a no for me. It is legal in California. I guess Catholics suffering from a slow, painful death are just out of luck. You have to tough it out. I feel for anyone in that position though. I feel sorry for my Mother who is dying of Cancer. All I can do is pray that her suffering will end and enjoy her company while I can.

10/14/19 update on my mom

The hospice worker just said “this is what death sounds like,” and told us that she is likely to die within a few hours. So sad!

A poem

I’ve been saved from the grave
I dug for you

You were older and came passing through

I was just so young
I didn’t know what to do

and now im without you
and now im without you

-Anonymous

A new mental health mural in San Diego

Take me back to the 1970s please! Which one of the Doobie Brothers do you think smoked the most doobies? LOL I seriously love this song still.

Yes, love is madness ! I love you!!

Performance of the day! The Police performing King of Pain at Rock In Rio

This is an age old question, "If God is great and good, why do his followers suffer so much? Why do people have to suffer so much in their lives?" My mother has always been a devout Catholic. She goes to church every Sunday, she prays before meals, she tries to follow the Commandments, she believes. Why is she dying such a brutally painful death? Who is responsible for this? I blame my evil enemies. Harmful magic may be more powerful than God. Watching my mother die a painful death is definately shaking my faith in God. Say a prayer for my mother. Say a prayer for me.

Someone on schizophrenia.com really identified with the people in this video. He said they were "cool." I found this video a bit sad, because it was filmed in a mental hospital years ago. 

The first man interviewed had a sense of humor about his situation, at least. I appreciate that and can relate now. When I had my last psychotic break, the voices would make jokes at my expense but I was not in a place where I could laugh or make jokes.

Wait for it...He says something about calling Ghostbusters. LOL 

Bedtime meme

I am tempted to do this...

This is why I don’t seek serious advice from online forums. LOL 

This keeps happening to me! Look what I found on the ground at the park! This time I kept the money! LOL

I need a cat!

Or not...

Mind numbing poll!

Nordstrom? Bloomingdales? 

And the other way around...

A meme about psychiatrists! All the doctors I know are basically quacks.

So my mother went to an oncologist today and he told her that she has maybe a week and a half to live. This is almost laughable. I would love to prove him wrong!

I heard this song today and I thought of my mother and I wept.

It is very close to Halloween and I am in a dark place. So I went to Sprouts today with a friend and picked up some Shaman sage to rid my house of any negative energy. With my mother’s cancer situation, I figure that I need some extra help! I hope it works! I need more positive energy and thoughts in my life!

I don't remember if I wrote in my book about the time I sought a shaman to fight off the people I believed were hexing me. The voice, Esteban, said to me "She is seeking a shaman for help. Be forewarned. Shamanism has nothing on Santeria! I am a mastermind of Santeria! Be forewarned." I felt very threatened by the angry voices. It was a scary time!