At this point, I need a sibling like this.

 

Never ending confusion

 Like Esteban said this morning, “The confusion is real!” If I know one thing, it’s that I am confused. I am confused about how my life became so chaotic and  publicized, yet no one seems to see that or care about it but me. I am also confused by my so called support network heartlessly playing games and making jokes, despite all I am dealing with. I am confused why Keith never believed me or bothered to leave his wife, until now? “Well besides that, she’s a great wife!” He didn’t care enough to check in with me or help me out of this for over 10 years since this supposedly began. And of course, me and the rest of the world are confused why I am being hexed and how the hell my tormentors are doing all of the shit they are doing? This is definitely unbelievable in every way!

Since I first realized that I was being hexed in 2014, I have been confused about whether I was actually being hexed or if my mental illness had gotten the best of me? I started hearing voices, most likely in my head, and I wondered if they ever occurred outside of my head? Could the voices possibly be audible to others? I wondered about and hoped that they were audible to others.  I do credit my local Indigenous friends for helping others to hear and understand what I am dealing with. They are very generous, helpful, kind, and they possess many awesome and beneficial talents. 

When my main verbal harasser, Esteban, claimed that he was a “mastermind of Santeria” I tried to look for information about Santeria online. The online information about Santeria definitely disappointed me, because it was very vague and glosses over any thing about abusive or taboo practices. Every explanation you can find of Santeria is just a cover up, in my opinion. The vibe you get from the online narrative is “just respect their religion, culture, and mind your own business!” 

I disagree with forced respect to people and practices, who should be transparent and potentially be held accountable, for any abuses, (whether it be from its practitioners or its practices) like everyone else. Harassing and abusing other people should not be an accepted and illustrated part of any religion. I definitely see an attempt to gloss over the revenge allowances and malicious magic practices that Santeria allows and illustrates to its users.

I read that, to successfully employ the malicious magical practices of Voodoo and Santeria, you need to fully initiate yourself into that religion, become a member, and actively practice it, to reep the benefits of Santeria. Either someone has to let you into the religion or someone has to show you how to work the magic in Santeria. 

Online and general public information claims that Santeria is “derived from Catholicism and combined with other Afro-Cuban traditions.” I don’t see how Santeria resembles Catholicism, in any way. They are praying to completely different  “deities” or “orishas,” Each one the spirits they pray to are some form of Beelzebub.”  Santeria is just Voodoo, with Latin flair. Santeria is just Venezuelan Voodoo.  

Really, I think the U family should apologize to the faithful Voodoo and Santeria communities around the world, because the U family is actually dabbling in harmful magic abuse and crime. Call what you are doing, what it really is, malicious magic. No one wants to be associated with your family. You should apologize to the Voodoo and Santeria faithful communities around the world, for casting a negative light on them! Shame on you!  You’re not like them!

When you practice malicious magic, supposedly the harm you do, comes back to you threefold. That’s not a desired outcome for me. I would never sign on, to sell my soul to the devil, for the purpose of playing God on Earth. People’s motivations for using a religion like Santeria is (in this case at least) to satisfy the demon that lives inside of them. They seek to use malicious magic to force moving forward in some way, to edge out competition, for revenge, or to satisfy sadistic cravings.  All of these motivations are disgusting to me and the inevitable consequences from them are dreadful. My enemies will not be dragging me down into the fiery pits of (afterlife) hell with them.

I do blame this awful and inevitable Santeria trade off, for the reason why law enforcement has been so slow, to believe and to investigate what I have been telling them, for a decade. Like Federica said, “The Carlsbad police department doesn’t have the wherewithal to handle a case like this.” She’s right. People in law enforcement tend to be sticklers for following the rules. They definitely know the consequences of breaking laws and they don’t want that outcome for themselves. My point is, they don’t know how to or want to mess around with malicious magic.  No one wants to sacrifice their peace of mind, after work, for eternity. Looking into magical mayhem, for law abiding, God fearing members of law enforcement, would most likely not be an assignment they would willingly take on. They would definitely need overtime, a bonus of some sort, raise or a raise for that! 

 **I am taking the opportunity to use their real names because it freaks them out. Let’s see what happens next!

The Santeria squad is here in town!

 Go get them, law enforcement team! (who are 100% on my side.) I knew stupid Leigh kick started this hex with her pathetic inability to let it go. She doesn’t have children but “Let it go! Let it go!” I can’t wait for miss manipulation (who is a complete bitch and not worth anyone’s sympathy) to be arrested!  Any day now, law enforcement will step in to arrest you! You are a failure! A complete failure! I hope to see you behind bars! Why are your gym rat friends and Keith’s sister so up your ass? I don’t get it! You and your evil cousins, with your out of control tempers, are insane! What spoiled brats you all are! I cant wait to see your mug shots!! I hope they have Gucci prison jumpsuits and Manolo Blahnik slides for you in prison!You will have plenty of time to lift weights in jail! I hate you and I knew that you were a part of this hex all along! You have backed off and become more of a silent partner lately, but this is still all your fault and you will be held liable for what you personally have done, Miss Witch! Your world will be rocked way more than it is now! You are not innocent or a victim! You can’t force people to marry you or stay with you, against their will, you little spoiled brat! You and your family are such sore losers! Seek therapy, please!

She is the problem!

When you have con artists like this woman and paranoid people continuing to reference the Salem Witch Trials, it has caused so much doubt in my story. No one believes that people are actually capable of spying, harassing, and physically injuring their targets through witchcraft. I know that the Salem Witch Trials were a crazy conservative attempt to control strong unmarried women. It was male driven misogyny at its worst! There was absolutely zero proof to punish the accused women in the most extreme and brutal way possible. 

Unfortunately, since then, magic mayhem has not been thought possible. The cries for help are always scoffed at and dismissed as lunacy. My cry for help appears to be a huge joke to people. What I have been telling people may be hard to believe. You have to see it, to believe it. People love to gossip about me more than anything. No one takes my situation or story too seriously. I may be crazy, and this may be hard to believe, but this is actually real!

Keep your drums away from her!

 It seemed so perfect to find a spell man who is adventurous and unassuming among many other attractive qualities. She hoped he may not mind her having her magical mischief hobby. Maybe he would think it was cool, if he knew? He probably never knew that he had met and gotten serious with a witch. She seemed so friendly and innocent. She charmed  everyone around them! Santeria may have played a role in keeping the blinders on her romantic target. 

I never knew that drum playing was a way that practioners of Santeria summon spirits for help. Good to know! His drum kit should have been kept hidden from his magic meddling wife. If he had given my suspicious, but intuitive mind any credit, this could have been avoided. He may have been aware of her “fascinating” hobby and learned a few tricks himself.. I do wonder why he still traveled down here and why I get so excited to see him. He never seemed to care about how it appeared to his wife. She has probably been suspicious and nervous all along. I have always felt tricked and teased by his pointless attempts to get my attention, get my hopes up, and frustrate me. He never followed through on his pursuit of me. He enjoyed life with his wife and traveled the world with her. He knew the story I was putting out there. He never gave it any serious thought. He wrote me off as crazy or merely crazy jealous. He never offered any real consolation, assistance, or apology for kick starting this hex. I feel like such a fool for waiting around for him all of this time! Pointless! You are not helping me with my paranoia! You are contributing to it!

I apologize if this blog is offensive to people practicing Santeria. I am ignorant. I don’t know enough about Santeria to criticize it. I can’t generalize the bad intentions of my enemies to every person of this religion. I am jaded, as a result of this hex. I know that there are many good people of every religion. You can’t demonize an entire religion! Sorry for the blanket insult to Santeria and hurt that this blog may cause  I think all religions have great intentions and Santeria is no different!. If anyone practicing Santeria has enough sympathy for me or interest to do so, I would appreciate your good and positive prayers  I hope Santeria (and all religions) helps  brings everyone peace, love, the best life (and afterlife) possible!

It helps to be a billionaire trust fund baby who is also a mastermind of Santeria

 No one is trying to deport you! You fly in and out of America easily and first class, probably. That’s what it is! You are a spoiled brat! Everyone in your family is used to getting whatever they want because of the family money, connections, appearances, and of course Santeria. You can’t take a joke! You can’t handle losing! You can’t even handle seeing your distant cousin lose! WTF? Anyway, you think you’re better than everyone else and you are used to being treated like a celebrity in Venezuela. You must have been so shocked and frustrated when things weren’t so free…of consequences, due to differing cultural values. It’s all about freedom, right? You never know.  If  Venezuelan authorities knew the reckless vengeful harm the magical aspect of Santeria could cause, maybe they would outlaw it as well? I hope so! 

This whole hex is just basically an overreaction to not getting what you want! You are throwing a huge tantrum over it! You think Santeria is cool and justified. There was no law spelling out the illegalities of hurting people through magic, so you assumed that you would get away with this. Are you so shocked that people found out what you are doing to me and feel differently? This is beyond messed up. It’s debatable whether I did anything wrong or enough wrong to deserve getting hexed. Now you are just dragging this out because you are stubborn and bitter that I sought help. Now that important people believe me and are helping me, you plead ignorance. It went from “I am not doing anything” to “Well maybe I may be practicing Santeria, but I never knew it could ever be considered a crime and be held accountable for it!”

I’m curious what you have done to your cousins husband? He initiated these emotional mental wanderings. He has been obsessed with me, since college. He never stopped driving down here and trying to get my attention, while married to your cousin. He started this, but I have a voodoo doll, in my likeness, that you stabbed in the back at least 20 times yesterday. You’re an asshole who just can’t let it go!

Here is a video of Evil E, while he was living in San Diego. Please stop singing along to all of the songs that I am listening to! That’s not a crime really, but everyone suspects that what they see at stoplights, the tiny humiliations, are just the tip of the ice berg. That is nothing compared to the other highly illegal ways that you may have hurt me and my family. Be so offended by my video here Evil E! This is how you were acting the entire time you were living here in America. You’re a clown! Let’s see how you overreact this time  because of my joke and because I am making other people laugh at you.  I could keep going, as long as you can. If you are going to continue messing with me, I will continue making you the butt of my jokes and a public mockery. I am funny. I am good at this. I am a mastermind of mockery! Be forewarned! 

Every time something embarrassing happens to me, out of the blue. My mind goes to Evil E. Did he do this to me? How does he do these things? He thinks it’s me, who is his bitch, and that he can do whatever he wants to me. I am here for his amusement.  

Evil E: It is you who are the butt of my jokes! I suggest that you play the cards you’ve been dealt. You should play your cards right and be nice, or you will suffer the consequences. Be forewarned!

Delusion of the day

 Someone is stealing the gas from my gas tank. Lately I have been noticing my gas and oil evaporating and needing refill very quickly. My service advisor at Herman Coon VW told me to start using high quality gasoline. I thought using regular unleaded would work just fine for my low-mid price vehicle. I never heard that using more expensive gas would help the gas not evaporate as fast/last longer. I never heard that investing in top tier gas would help in the upkeep of my car and minimize expensive service-related problems, down the road. I have been filling my tank up on Thursdays lately. I used to be able to only fill up exactly once per week. I drive a lot in short distances. Over the weekend I drove to Rancho Santa Fe, Linda Vista, and Solana Beach, so maybe that would explain why I am at 1/4 tank now. Or maybe someone is stealing the gas out of my tank, while I am asleep at night?!

Another example of relationship termination revenge

 https://youtube.com/watch?v=5Rx2SAif8IM&si=ooczJCKnEosNYVh9

Scorned woman loses control and murders her wife for attempting to terminate their relationship. The fugitive has fled to Mexico to evade police. You can’t keep a romantic partner, in a relationship, against their will. Break ups happen all the time. We need to deal with our emotions in a calm, graceful, and legal manner. Seek therapy, not revenge.

I may sound smug because I have never been in a relationship tornado that was exciting, passionate, and sparked the notion that my partner was perfect (for me). I have never had a passionate, love of my life relationship.  I never thought that my partner was my “soulmate.”

 I have never been dead set on holding onto a romantic partner, at all costs. I don’t think I will ever live and breathe for a romantic partner or spouse. Everyone is flawed. Anyone could conceivably leave, at any time, if they wanted to. Their reasons for leaving may feel unfair and insulting to their jilted partners.

People have the freedom to leave though. People can be shallow and fickle. They fall out of love. They find other people they like better and could conceivably choose that new person over you. We can’t lose our minds over it! We can’t try to hold them hostage or end their lives in order to prevent them leaving and moving on with someone else.

This unhinged woman, who allegedly killed her wife and her first husband, is pathetic! She really can’t handle rejection! Turn yourself in now, lady! No one is worth stressing over this hard!  You should say to yourself, “Leave already then! I deserve better! I deserve someone who loves only me. I deserve someone who isn’t distracted and tempted to leave me for anyone else. I deserve someone who is willing to and capable of monogamy. I deserve someone who can ride the ups and downs of a life long committed relationship with me!”