Oh The English language! A meme for writers? LOL

REM was considered the quintessential college band. Unfortunately I didn't like REM when I was in college. But I heard Losing My Religion while dining at Islands yesterday and I enjoyed the song. Maybe I got it for the first time. I used to think that  the song was literally about losing your faith but I realized it is more romantic than that. This YouTube video explains the real story about the songs meaning.

The song was really about unrequited love. Who knew?

Guess which photo was me in high school?

As I sit down to eat some potato chips...

Voice: Look at her go to town on those Baked Lays! That is the only thing of Leigh’s that she will ever touch!

My voices have been few and far between, despite daily stress and health scares. I am going to the dermatologist on Monday because I am so paranoid about getting another skin cancer. But it is my mother who has been newly diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer and my father is not in the best health either. Fortunately my meds are still working, for the most part, which eases my fear that I am being hexed.

Cancer changes your life, often for the better. You learn what's important, you learn to prioritize, and you learn not to waste your time. You tell people you love them. My friend Gilda Radner used to say, 'If it wasn't for the downside, having cancer would be the best thing and everyone would want it.' That's true. If it wasn't for the downside.

Gilda Radner

The Shaka from HELL!

The shaka pose is nothing compared to his heinous crimes, but now he has me cringing over what a fool he is. I have never been more ashamed to be a fellow San Diegan. He is a disgrace to mankind and a poser to boot. Do not shaka, jackass! You are definitely not cool. Go to hell!

Cringeworthy is an understatement.

I have always cringed when certain people who don't surf throw a shaka. I have a neighbor that has tried to initiate a shaka with me, and I won't do it. I just wave back because I do not surf and would feel like a complete poser. ...And then there is this guy!

https://www.kpbs.org/news/2019/sep/19/preliminary-hearing-set-for-poway-synagogue/

Thursday meme

This is clever and reminds me to start off with a smile and don’t make any enemies!

Wednesday meme

This parallels the life of many a lonely person, living with mental illness. This quote I just stole from a friend. “If you’re lonely when you are alone, you’re in bad company.”  - Jean-Paul Sartre

I must be a dragonfly!

https://www.healthyholisticliving.com/female-dragonflies-fake-death-to-avoid-males/?utm_source=SA&fbclid=IwAR3JY31ZZ-civVHsqu4E9RO0niEOUih6afQB1E2rITfvlSDHRmHK4OHsVeI

My voices criticize my appearance and eating habits all the time.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/31537204?dopt=Abstract

Shattered, a haiku that I didn't write.

The past has returned
These feelings break me apart
My youth was shattered

I swear that I didn't write this either. ( Whoa! This one is scary.)

Hexing (A haiku)

Let me cast my spell
A hex for her transgressions
I want her to hurt

This skit would have been funnier if it was about...you guessed it, a college graduation, but funny nonetheless. I definitely wasn’t the class valedictorian, but I was bitter like the valedictorian character in this sketch. “You are going to wish you got together with me when you had the chance.” LOL 

Wise words!

This is funny!

I don’t know what made me think of this. Does anyone remember this news story out of Australia? Americans laughed. The story became a huge joke and no one believed that a dingo could eat a human baby. How would you feel if a dingo ate your baby? The parents were judged and ridiculed. They were later found innocent and many more deadly dingo attacks have been reported. Why do I feel like this woman? I identify with her predicament and think it is terrible to lose a child and have your name and reputation dragged through the mud. I am the voice for unusual causes! Stay away from wild dingos.


https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_dingo_ate_my_baby

Smiles can be deceiving. I went to Islands today and it was nice. I posed for this picture but I am processing my Moms cancer diagnosis. Apparently it is Stage 4. She sees at least 2 doctors per week for different things. How could they just catch this now? I am scared of losing my mother and feel like I am pressed for time here. I don’t want her to die.

I do not remember if I discussed this before on my blog. I have been somewhat aware of the musician (and fellow San Diego resident) Tom DeLonge, from the bands Blink 182/Angels and Airwaves. He made headlines years ago for seemingly going AWOL psychologically and developing a hobby/obsession with UFO's. Everyone laughed and called him "crazy" for many years. But he was unyielding in his determination to get people to see that what he saw/thought/felt was real. I always identified with this struggle.

I know that I am diagnosed schizoaffective, but I also believe that the voices in my head are the result of possibly Voodoo or Santeria practices by my enemies. I put my story out there and still no one believes me. No one has even bothered to look into whether this is possible. I tried going to the police and they wanted nothing to do with me.

So, today, when it looks like Tom DeLonge made some headway in getting the world to believe him, I was inspired, yet envious. Everyone still thinks that I am just crazy.

https://theblast.com/c/navy-ufo-unidentified-video-tom-delonge-aliens

Fretting over the past is always a tempting  option, however with my recent health scare and my mother's dire health situation, tonight I will likely be worrying about the future.

So I drove to Vons tonight and went to the cart rack to grab a small cart.  There I saw this HUGE wallet! Someone left their wallet in my cart and it was jam packed with money and credit cards. The money was sticking out of the wallet because it was so jam packed! I felt like I was on a hidden camera show. Like oh, is she going to do the right thing?  What would you do? I went right in and returned it to the store supervisor, who put it in a safe. I did not take a picture of the wallet, but you wouldn't believe it. I felt good that I did the right thing. Boy, I do not need a headache like that now or ever! Reward? Check out this hidden camera show!

Not Rick Ocasek! RIP

One of the people who I believe is hexing me has a fascination with Voodoo and Dia de los Muertos.I do like to get in her head though, as she has gotten into mine. 

Or your first wife in some scenarios...

I started hearing voices today after posting this. LOL Why do I do this to myself? It makes my enemies angry!

And I think my skin cancer came back. It looks like rosy cheeks but it itches.

The cat version of Norm from Cheers!

Gnarly house spider of the day!

Deep thoughts!

No one probably will care about this but me... I used to watch this show as a child and actually still watched it throughout my teenage years in Los Angeles. The Froozles was a great children's television program from the 1970s.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sally_Baker

Another schizophrenia meme

https://metro.co.uk/2019/09/11/aaron-carter-diagnosed-schizophrenia-bipolar-disorder-amid-troubled-times-10723995/?ito=article.amp.share.top.facebook&fbclid=IwAR1A5PT6DgSV1-C2dLJP3cxDpayadHf-2Q1a3bcreYlaf0hWj2DtGScUU4Q

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/9853789

I love getting out of the house and trying new things. Since I moved to Carlsbad in 1998, I have always wanted to go to the Pannikin Coffee house in Leucadia. I finally got to go today and it was worth the wait. What a cute coffee house!

It seems odd to say that I was scared to go to this coffee house for years and years. I have social anxiety and it is always crowded here. I used to drive by the Pannikin and I was torn. It looked like the cool place to be but everyone looked too cool for school and it was always too crowded. Today it was not too crowded and no one bothered me. I guess that I do not feel stalked anymore. In fact, no one paid any attention to me. All those years of insecurity and paranoia hindered me from going somewhere cool. What a waste that was. I consider today a success!

Here is a very interesting study! I am definitely afraid of sharks!

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4972383/

Why do I get the impression that this couple smokes weed every day?

By the way, whoever planted that weed in my front yard, very funny. It has been yanked out and tossed in the garbage where it belongs.

So I am trying to watch my diet. I sit down to eat a rice cake and my daughter asks me what I am eating. When I say rice cake, she starts laughing and shows me this YouTube video. This is the comedy that is my life.

I feel that my antipsychotic saved me in a major way. It is killing me at the same time. I am obese. I have to take statins and blood pressure medication. Now I have a blood clot in my right leg. I blame all these other health issues on my antipsychotic. Click on the link below to read about how statin  drugs may be good for our mental health.

http://www.pharmatimes.com/news/statins_may_help_treat_serious_mental_illness_1274541

Ok be honest! Do you think this cloud formation looks like Captain America?

Thank you Vraylar for all your hard work! I feel great! Thank you Allergan for creating such a great drug. Now I have to try your other god-send product Botox! lol