The Voices

Sunday, February 28, 2021

Someone bought my book!

I am always surprised and grateful when someone buys my short novella on Amazon. I wonder who is interested and who cares about my mental health journey. Thank you to whoever bought my book last Saturday and please leave me a positive rating too! Thank you!

Lately the voices have been very quiet.

Valentina: She thinks she’s skinny but she is so fat!

Maeve: Yes, why does she think that she is thin? Why does she think she looks good? You don’t look good!

However, the female voices were taunting me the other night when I was half asleep. I woke up to this the other night. They were saying that I think I am skinny, but I am really fat. Why do I think that I am looking pretty good? Why am I self confident at all? I don’t have a good answer to that. If the voices had their way, I would feel terrible about myself all the time.

All I can say back to the voices is that I take an antipsychotic, which makes maintaining my goal weight a struggle, but I am working on it. I try not to focus on my weight. I also try to get my 10,000 steps in daily! I feel good when I exercise and eat fairly healthy. When I eat unhealthy, I beat myself up so I don’t need internal voices or exterior people bugging me about it!

Today was a good day

I thought I saw my soulmate today, as well as Jay Z & Beyoncé cruising through Encinitas at La Costa and the 101. They could be here on vacation? A schizophrenic never can be too sure. Well nice to see you all!

PS I know that Today Was A Good Day is not a Jay Z song and that it was not probably really them. It was more likely a hallucination. Today was a good day for hallucinations.