I am always surprised and grateful when someone buys my short novella on Amazon. I wonder who is interested and who cares about my mental health journey. Thank you to whoever bought my book last Saturday and please leave me a positive rating too! Thank you!
Sunday, February 28, 2021
Lately the voices have been very quiet.
Valentina: She thinks she’s skinny but she is so fat!
Maeve: Yes, why does she think that she is thin? Why does she think she looks good? You don’t look good!
However, the female voices were taunting me the other night when I was half asleep. I woke up to this the other night. They were saying that I think I am skinny, but I am really fat. Why do I think that I am looking pretty good? Why am I self confident at all? I don’t have a good answer to that. If the voices had their way, I would feel terrible about myself all the time.
All I can say back to the voices is that I take an antipsychotic, which makes maintaining my goal weight a struggle, but I am working on it. I try not to focus on my weight. I also try to get my 10,000 steps in daily! I feel good when I exercise and eat fairly healthy. When I eat unhealthy, I beat myself up so I don’t need internal voices or exterior people bugging me about it!
Today was a good day
I thought I saw my soulmate today, as well as Jay Z & Beyoncé cruising through Encinitas at La Costa and the 101. They could be here on vacation? A schizophrenic never can be too sure. Well nice to see you all!
PS I know that Today Was A Good Day is not a Jay Z song and that it was not probably really them. It was more likely a hallucination. Today was a good day for hallucinations.
Saturday, February 27, 2021
My college memory
This was my college experience in a nutshell! Drummers get all the attention from all the women!
Friday, February 26, 2021
Thursday, February 25, 2021
Wednesday, February 24, 2021
Tuesday, February 23, 2021
My voices and my unfortunate fate.
My internal, raging voices,
are merely negative, errant thoughts from my past.
My illness gave them identities, to put blame on.
I do not blame these persons for my troubles.
Only my illness is to blame.
Regardless, my fate entails,
That these voices will undoubtedly,
Ricochet back and forth,
Throughout my brain.
Haunting and harassing me,
Over and over again.
I am fully prepared for the voices,
To continue and carry on the internal harassment,
In defeat my medication,
Until the day I die.
Monday, February 22, 2021
Sunday, February 21, 2021
Fat hippies
Someone said that we have all become fat hippies during the quarantine. We are constantly stress-eating and in need of a haircut. I agree! ✌️
Friday, February 19, 2021
Psych ward food is mediocre
It’s a funny story that I don’t remember if I wrote about in my book. When I was in the psych ward we lucked out one day and someone bought us all Rubios Fresh Mexican for lunch. But the voices convinced me that Tony Hawk hand selected the hospital food for us and I didn’t want to offend him so I ate the crappy hospital food instead. I was so gullible. Oh well.
Passes me by
staring at the walls,
as life passes me by.thinking of the things i’ve done
and could’ve done.
wondering if i’ll ever do anything again.
Things seem eerily perfect
Like everything is coming together for me. Am I just delusional? Probably.
Wednesday, February 17, 2021
Tuesday, February 16, 2021
Monday, February 15, 2021
Link to my book
Yes I am plugging my book on Amazon again! Please click on the link to check out my book (The Voices by Danielle Flore) if you haven’t already. The last person who purchased my book kindly left me a 5 star review! I am excited and flattered over that. Thank you to whoever bought my book and left me a favorable review!
Sunday, February 14, 2021
Love The One You’re With
Beautiful song here! It certainly sounds a lot easier than trying to find and connect with your elusive soul mate. Love the one you’re with. I didn’t put that into physical practice on Valentine’s Day today. 🤷♀️
Saturday, February 13, 2021
Friday, February 12, 2021
Valentines voices
Mateo: This is Trey Sanders. I’m sorry dear. I don’t know what you were thinking, but I am going back to my wonderful wife, Maeve, in Santa Cruz. So be forewarned!
Maeve: Maeve? Is that supposed to be my name? Maeve? I hate her so much. I can’t stand it. Do you honestly think that my husband would ever leave me for you? I will tell you, no, he never would. But have a wonderful Valentines weekend in Carlsbad without Trey Sanders! I am taking him back to Santa Cruz with the help of a powerful love spell. I don’t seriously need a love spell. I am madly in love with my husband and he with me, so be forewarned. The only forewarning you need is to realize that you have reached a dead end, with no Trey in sight. He is not now, nor is he ever coming for you. Be forewarned, for nothing! All that forewarning was for nothing. You are still apart and will remain so forever. And quit writing about us in your online blog for the world to see!
Thursday, February 11, 2021
Jerry Garcia quotes
I Don't Think There's A Good Excuse For Being Unhappy. I'm Not Particularly Unhappy, But I Know What Pain Is. I think That Life Is Characterized By Pain, Partly. Part Of The Way You Can Tell You're Alive Is By How Much Pain You're Experiencing, Or How Little..."
-- Jerry GarciaWednesday, February 10, 2021
Debbie Downer poem of the day
Valentine’s: A poem
It’s nearly valentine’s day,
Such an awkward time
For singles and
Couples who don’t love each other.
I didn’t write this. It’s very true though.
Cat fishing sucks!
Let me dream! Don’t let your mind (or someone else) play tricks on you, in the quest for love. Unfortunately, when you fall in love, reality always eventually slaps you in the face. This is especially true for too-good-to-be-true online relationships.
https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.tmz.com/2021/02/10/bruno-mars-catfish-texas-100k-money/
Monday, February 8, 2021
Sunday, February 7, 2021
Thursday, February 4, 2021
Control: A poem
Getting distressed over
Things I can’t controlAppears to be another
Thing I can’t control
I continue to see people that I recognize from far away places here in my small town of Carlsbad. I wonder what they are doing here. It must be random or some case of mistaken identity, as they never stop their car to speak to me. They just drive past me a lot and then some days I don’t see them at all. It eats away at me when I don’t see them, instead of offering me some peace of mind. As the poem states, many things and people in your life are out of your control. I can’t decide whether I want to see these people or not, as no good comes of it and nothing really changes. It eats away at me, whether I see them or not! It is a never ending cycle!
Wednesday, February 3, 2021
Wishing
Dancing
With schizophrenia
Wishing the music
Would stop
Why do I think everything is about me? I can’t even go to the grocery store without thinking the songs being played are about me or are being played purposely for me. My vanity trips me up constantly!
Tuesday, February 2, 2021
Monday, February 1, 2021
Bait: A poem
I am
Just
Divorce
Bait
I feel that certain people, mostly men, are baiting me right now. I certainly don’t want to bait anyone. Stay married! Be happy! Don’t fall in the over-40 trap of having a midlife crisis. If you are going to leave your wife, do it in grand fashion...with a much younger woman. Don’t do it with me. All joking aside, this poem is just meant to convey the authors insecurities about whether or not they are suitable marriage material.
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