Billy Idol: I was today years old

 Like with everything in my life for the past 10 years, (noticeably that is, because this may have gone on for longer. I was just oblivious to it) So today I had an epiphany about the Billie Idol song “Eyes Without A Face.” I remember in college singing along to this song. It was randomly in my head. And some guy looked at me and simply said “Ew!” I had no idea why he would say that to me. I thought he was so rude. For a naive girl like me, I never really thought about what that meant. I just didn’t get it. I was today years old, when I was listening to this song and I finally got it! I mean, I think I got it! I may have only realized this because Esteban was laughing in his head about it. He didn’t use his words though. You would have to be a male to really get or appreciate what Billie Idol was talking about here. Eyes Without A Face? If he isn’t looking at your face, he must be referring to another pair of eyes. At almost 50 I finally understand! I am horrified, but I understand what he is saying. Maybe because my intention was to always keep my fourth eye closed, I was not thinking that I had a second pair of eyes. 

This is why we need more female musicians. Men like to write about sex. If they aren’t writing lyrics about sex or lyrics written with the intention of acquiring sex, what else are they writing about? 

Anyway, I was watching this TikTok where this man was complaining about his loneliness and frustration about how most men that he is encountering, want sex first. The dating and subsequent relationship happen after that initial experience, if the rest happens at all. A boy told me that in college and I didn’t want to believe it. I thought he was playing a trick on me to make me let him do what he wanted with me. I never did. But I do believe that is the order most men (at least secretly) want it to be. They don’t seem that interested in alot of chit chat or taking me on any kind of date, to get to know in a real sense or to be romantic. That puts a lot of pressure on women to make that initial sexual encounter off the charts sexy and memorable. Part of the problem is that teenage boys start to watch porn and get these high expectations of women, in their sexual encounters. Don’t get your hopes up! The average woman is not a porn star or a performer, trying to give you a 4 star experience and feed your ego.  I hate to disappoint you. We all know that if a woman gives it up too quickly, whether they impressed you or not, you judge them as being a whore and quickly move on to your next victim. If you do want to engage with me, look into my eyes! (On my face, that is)