People have been asking me the usual New Years questions. What are you doing for New Year’s? Do you have anything fun planned? No. Do you have any big plans for the New Year? Any New Year’s resolutions? No again.
I have been running myself ragged lately because my three children are on winter break. I have been, for the most part, the sole parent to keep the kids fed and entertained. Their father is a lazy hermit, with a bad attitude. He is depressed, as well, and practically bed bound. If he is not in the office at work, he is lying in bed. I fear people will blame me when the bed rot runs its course. It’s not my choice or preference for him to lay in bed all day. The bed is his favorite place to lounge. It’s his choice and it’s his life. I didn’t realize beforehand, that I was marrying Charlie’s grandpa from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory Oh, the things you learn after the wedding ceremony, when you actually move in together! Stephen is little help to me with the children and he certainly doesn’t help clean. He is a pack rat, who creates the majority of the mess and clutter, as opposed to cleaning it.
So what’s going to be different about 2025? Nothing, most likely. 2025 is going to be exactly the same as 2024. . I am in the exact same place, doing the exact same thing that I did last year. It’s Groundhog Year for me. Every year is basically the same, except I am getting older and I am physically feeling my age. Not much has improved, since I first got hexed. Well ok, I moved back in with my children’s father, so I can be with my children. I love my children and I love living with them full time, so that’s the silver lining. Stephen isn’t so bad either. He helps in some ways. Our relationship is friendly, and we put up with each other fairly well, so that’s good . My father is still alive, so I appreciate that and my other family who live close to me. I have helpful, loving siblings and a fun, supportive group of friends too. I know that I shouldn’t complain or be so pessimistic. I am a glass half empty kind of person, unfortunately.
My wish for the new year is for the criminal case against my enemies to make progress. Let’s get some evidence together, so we can figure out how to stop them from hexing me and prosecute them. I would like to feel less messed with mentally, by my enemies and by the man who is at the center of this drama. I never got an apology or closure, or got any closer to him. He doesn’t appear to be affected, by what is happening to me. He appears to care less and even find this flattering/amusing. He secretly loves that two women are fighting over him. He has been no help or support to me, throughout this whole ordeal. This begs the question, is he really worth this terrorizing roller coaster? I’m personally not having fun with this. I have enough to do and enough stress in my life already. I’m too busy for this drama! Crappy Poo Year!
Ok I take that last part back. I am going to be 50 years old on January 27th. I am going to focus on speaking and acting with maturity and grace starting today. I want to also work on being more positive and optimistic.
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