Apparently, over a year ago, Rodrigo created a mood board on Pinterest, to channel his anger online. This family and their Pinterest pages?! My family isn’t heavily into Pinterest, but my family is regular old Catholic, so it would be very vanilla compared to the U~ family. I know Rodrigo is pissed. He and K’s wife have been trying to get off free, by remaining fairly quiet and in complete denial of the crimes at hand here.
Everyone around here (in Carlsbad) knows the situation I am dealing with. They support me, of course. I have put up with a lot, for along time, because of the menacing U~family.
I was at the grocery store yesterday and this man pushing a shopping cart by, spoke directly to me. He broke the fourth wall. He said, “Fuck him.” I looked curiously at him and he repeated himself. “Fuck him!” I wondered which “him,” he was referring to? Fuck who? There are a few different men in this story who are pissing me off. Fuck the U~ family definitely, but fuck the mysterious married man, who reappeared, after rejecting me many years ago.
K keeps retriggering my past heart ache from when the window of opportunity closed. K was lost in limbo then, and he still is now. He just can’t give it up though. I think he’s still here in Carlsbad. I don’t know if he separated from his wife yet or filed for divorce? He may have moved his office out of his home, to another location, in Santa Cruz. So he is still living and working there I guess.
I don’t think anyone supports him down here anyway and they think that I shouldn’t either. What has he ever done for me, except take advantage of me in college and stalk me from afar? He didn’t deem me girlfriend material back then. He just wanted to sow his wild oats. He wanted to continue hunting for and enjoying other women. K definitely tried to work his way around, in college. I do think he had the intention of dating around in med school as well and possibly finding someone new after he graduated med school and got back home to California.
Maybe I am just deluding myself, with that possible scenario though. He had a much younger, cute girlfriend, who he was having fun with. What good looking male medical student graduates, without getting engaged or married beforehand? I knew this was going to happen. Some woman nabbed him during that critical window of time, prior to med school graduation. The U~ family, being the spoiled, sore losers, that they are, weren’t going to let the handsome medical student that their cousin was dating, get away, She was not pregnant, but figuratively, it was a shotgun wedding.
K’s family is driving me up the wall. They believe Maeve wasn’t involved in this or maybe they just don’t care. Is it so sweet that she loved K so much, she coerced him into and to remain in a marriage, to some degree, against his will? He obviously had good reason to doubt their relationship.
K traveling down to Carlsbad all the time, screwed up both of our lives. M’s cousins obviously did some witchcraft, when he was staying with them, with their fakest smiles and welcoming bravado. This emotional affair was “all my fault,” according to M’s cousins. Their treatment of me was honest and awful from the start. They were transparent with their feelings about me and about what they were doing to me.
I know I didn’t deserve all this. The stupidity of K’s family and his own lack of bravery, apologies, and any form of help, could be a deal breaker for me. Not one of the S~ family members wants K to leave Santa Cruz, including K. They are pissed at the thought of K leaving his witch wife. They could care less about the witchcraft or the developing criminal investigation. I’m just some crazy, meddling home wrecker, who made this all up. Right? If you do believe me at all, you just don’t care that your family name is being dragged through the mud because of M. If you think K’s career and your whole family’s reputation isn’t going to be affected by this, don’t kid yourself!
I can’t control weird, stupid, or toxic family members. I can choose not to enter into relationships and to exit toxic relationships, at all times. Most people (who aren’t under a spell or coerced in some way) are able to deny relationship overtures and exit relationships that are toxic or that just don’t suit them. People who are dumped often feel used and insulted by their romantic partners reasons to break up or divorce. People can leave for perplexing and superficial reasons. That’s a part of life and relationships though, Everyone experiences and suffers through this at some point in their lives. Putting a love spell on your partner is just delaying the inevitable and will backfire later on. That’s where we are now.
I probably need therapy to see clearly the man at the center of this disaster. Would such an opposite mate even suit me? I am brave and strong. I definitely want a man that can match my bravery and strength. I probably wouldn’t have any respect for a wimpy man. I do see the frustration and confusion that other men feel over this fight over K. I may be superficial, but K is aging well, retaining his looks, trim physique, and a full head of hair, at 50 years old. I am not alone in being a job snob, when pondering the ideal mate. He’s a doctor, so the fight over K got ruthless quickly. He knows he has an advantage over other men too. He knows he has options, which is why he has a wondering eye.
She seemed clueless from the start though. Carlsbad is great, but of all the places in San Diego/world that you could travel to/surf why is he always here? Next time your husband wants to travel and explore a random city, like Modesto maybe, you should ask yourself, does he want to travel to this destination because he genuinely wants to explore Modesto, or because some girl, who he knew in college lives there?
Ponto is stalker central, if you ask me. If you are an old acquaintance of mine, who is not from San Diego, and you are going to surf Ponto, make sure that I see you in your wetsuit, on the side of the road, holding your surfboard. Otherwise you missed a critical trip goal. Even the guy that I never thought was the one that got away, bitterly comes down to stalking me from afar and talking shit about me to anyone he can. Go home already Tony!
Many of the images on R’s mood board could be great tattoos for him and Evil E. Your tempers and your inability to handle loss, are what got you into this mess. You are sore losers! You should work on that, in therapy. (Not merely through a Pinterest mood board)
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