Dumb Suggestions

**Trigger Warning**

Maeve: Dumb Ways To Die! So Many Dumb Ways To Die! Well, that was an interesting method for killing yourself! You should research your own too! Be Forewarned!

Out of respect for my sister, I will not be blogging what is and what will be spinning around in my head, as pertaining to the suicide of my brother-in-law. I also do not want to trigger anyone who has suicidal ideation. As you can see from my blog, these voices are brutal and at a stressful time like this, brutal things are being uttered to me by them. (Just so you know)

The latest relationship trend

The latest relationship trend: Fall in love, move in together, get a pet (or two), and live happily ever after.  More and more people are ditching the piece of paper and occasionally, the children, and still living kick ass, fulfilling, fun lives. I am somewhere from a little to very, very jelly, depending on the couple. Distance weddings are also a thing. If you are not tied to a church, you could get married on a beautiful beach in Hawaii or Tahiti. I got married in my parents Catholic Church. Waa waa!

Ramble On!

Ok Back to the fantasy. I am thinking of switching out the voice name, Maeve, for Gollum because “Gollum and the evil ones crept up and slipped away with him. Yeah Ain’t nothing I can do. No.”

 I was listening to this version of Ramble On earlier today, on my walk. It was the first time I ever heard this live performance and I was blown away. I love Led Zeppelin! 

Coincidence?

Trigger warning ⚠️  I started crying buckets yesterday morning and didn’t know why. I felt snubbed and excluded on the therapy site schizophrenia.com. The sun wasn’t shining and I thought I had seasonal affective disorder. What a stupid and “California spoiled” reason to break down. 

Then I found out this afternoon that my sisters estranged husband, who has been hurting for a long time, has died by suicide. I am shocked and sad about it. I also have this unusual belief that I knew what he was going through yesterday and I sensed this was going to happen. My illness is being triggered by this unfortunate event but I have to be strong and be there for my sister and her son.

Valentina: I can hear him laughing at you. You must feel so terrible now. For all the things you said about him…for all the things you thought. Suicide, huh? He will be waiting for you…in hell!

Tonight’s fortune

 One more lover? Baby? Pet? It’s referring to you, Trey! It’s all you!

Maeve: You wish! You are going to feel mighty stupid when I post our next romantic public picture together. Our annual Christmas photo on the beach, maybe?  When are you going to realize that my man is going nowhere! We are blissfully in love and your chances with him are slim to none! Be forewarned!

Me: So you’re saying there’s a chance! 

Wednesday hump day?

Well it’s hump day, but not for me, I guess.

Maeve: You are scum of the earth for trying to smear my name, out of jealousy. Trey Sanders is my husband and the love of my life and you can’t handle it. Everyone can see through your pathetic, preposterous Santeria smear campaign. You are even trying to profit off your jealousy, by peddling books to people. I hope no one ever falls into the trap you are setting and purchases your poorly written “novella.”  

Maeve: Guess what? We are at a “clothing-optional” hot springs in Santa Cruz right now…and yes, we are completely naked, so be forewarned! While you sit in your carpool line, we are in ecstasy and having the time of our lives together, so you can just eat your heart out! Be forewarned.

Valentina: Valentina is here and I just want to say that you should never drink beer. It is very unfeminine to drink beer. Nasty! Maeve never drinks beer. She drinks wine, because she has class, so be forewarned! 

Valentina: Stupid bitch! You are trying to lure Trey into leaving his marriage through your very public writings and it is not working! Your evil motives are the very reason that we are continuing to hex you. We will not rest. We will not leave you alone until you stop longing for what never was and what will never be-a romantic relationship with Trey Sanders. Meanwhile Maeve has got Trey right where she wants him-in the bedroom, so be forewarned!