Wednesday, March 28, 2018

Erotomania

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Erotomania is a type of delusional disorder where the affected person believes that another person is in love with him or her. This belief is usually applied to someone with higher status or a famous person, but can also be applied to a complete stranger. Erotomanic delusions often occur in patients with schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders, but can also occur during a manic episode in the context of bipolar I disorder.[1] During an erotomanic delusion, the patient believes that a secret admirer is declaring his or her affection for the patient, often by special glances, signals, telepathy, or messages through the media. Usually the patient then returns the perceived affection by means of letters, phone calls, gifts, and visits to the unwitting recipient. Even though these advances are unexpected and often unwanted, any denial of affection by the object of this delusional love is dismissed by the patient as a ploy to conceal the forbidden love from the rest of the world.[2]
Erotomania is also called de Clérambault's syndrome, after French psychiatrist Gaëtan Gatian de Clérambault (1872–1934), who published a comprehensive review paper on the subject (Les Psychoses Passionnelles) in 1921. Erotomania should not be confused with obsessive love or obsession with unrequited love, neither of which involves delusion.

Presentation[edit]

The core symptom of the disorder is that the sufferer holds an unshakable belief that another person is secretly in love with them. In some cases, the sufferer may believe several people at once are "secret admirers". The sufferer may also experience other types of delusions concurrently with erotomania, such as delusions of reference, wherein the perceived admirer secretly communicates his or her love by subtle methods such as body posture, arrangement of household objects, and other seemingly innocuous acts (or, if the person is a public figure, through clues in the media). Erotomanic delusions are typically found as the primary symptom of a delusional disorder or in the context of schizophrenia and may be treated with atypical antipsychotics.[citation needed]

Well-known cases[edit]

In his paper that described the syndrome, de Clérambault referenced a patient he had counselled who was obsessed with British monarch George V.[3] She had stood outside Buckingham Palace for hours at a time, believing that the king was communicating his desire for her by moving the curtains.[3][4]
Parallels were drawn between this and a 2011 case where the body of a homeless American man was found on a secluded island within sight of Buckingham Palace. The man had sent hundreds of "strange and offensive" packages to Queen Elizabeth II over the previous 15 years.[4]
The assassination attempt on Ronald Reagan by John Hinckley, Jr. has been reported to have been driven by an erotomanic fixation on Jodie Foster, whom Hinckley was attempting to impress.[3]
Late night TV entertainer David Letterman and former astronaut Story Musgrave were both stalked by Margaret Mary Ray, who suffered from erotomania.[5][6]

History[edit]


M.S.P. "Female patient suffering from erotomania," from Alexander Morison's The Physiognomy of Mental Diseases
Early references to the condition can be found in the work of HippocratesErasistratusPlutarch and Galen.[citation needed] In the psychiatric literature it was first referred to in 1623 in a treatise by Jacques Ferrand (Maladie d'amour ou Mélancolie érotique) and has been variously called, "erotic paranoia" and "erotic self-referent delusions" until the common usage of the terms erotomania and de Clérambault's syndrome.
G. E. Berrios and N. Kennedy outlined in 'Erotomania: a conceptual history' (2002)[7] several periods of history through which the concept of erotomania has changed considerably:
  • Classical times – early eighteenth century: General disease caused by unrequited love
  • Early eighteenth – beginning nineteenth century: Practice of excess physical love (akin to nymphomania or satyriasis)
  • Early nineteenth century – beginning twentieth century: Unrequited love as a form of mental disease
  • Early twentieth century – present: Delusional belief of "being loved by someone else" 
             Yikes! Not all people with erotomania look disheveled like the woman pictured above. LOL



***So I learned a new word today, Erotomania. I may or may not have this. I am not a stalker and certainly, not violent. I am just a confused individual. My medication helps me a lot though. Strangely, my psychiatrist never diagnosed me with this. Perhaps she did not want to embarrass me or maybe she was too embarrassed to discuss this herself. She did try to convince me that Keith was happily married because they were splashing their love all over Facebook. Realistically, the best thing to do and was forget about him and quit following them on Facebook. She was right about that. I do think I have a subtle form of erotomania. Now I have to talk to my doctor and she if she agrees. She may not be the best psychiatrist for me. I mean, one of her specialties is death of a pet. Death of a pet? I have schizophrenia, a major mental illness. I do not know if I could find a better, local doctor who specializes in schizophrenia because there are not enough schizophrenics here to carry a practice. Roughly 1% of the population has schizophrenia.

Click below to read more about Erotomania.

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/319145.php


Another look for women with Erotomania. Just kidding.

Sunday, March 25, 2018

Unsane
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Theatrical release poster
Directed bySteven Soderbergh
Produced byJoseph Malloch
Written by
Starring
Music byThomas Newman
CinematographySteven Soderbergh
(as Peter Andrews)
Edited bySteven Soderbergh
(as Mary Ann Bernard)
Production
companies
Distributed by
Release date
  • February 21, 2018(Berlinale)
  • March 23, 2018 (United States)
Running time
98 minutes[1]
CountryUnited States
LanguageEnglish
Budget$1.5 million[2]
Box office$4.7 million[3]
Unsane is a 2018 American psychological horror-thriller film shot, edited, and directed by Steven Soderbergh and written by Jonathan Bernstein and James Greer. The film stars Claire FoyJoshua LeonardJay PharoahJuno TempleAimee Mullins, and Amy Irving, and follows a young businesswoman who ends up in a mental institution after she is stalked by her former hospice patient's son. The film was shot entirely on the iPhone 7 Plus.
Unsane had its world premiere at the Berlin International Film Festival on February 21, 2018, and was theatrically released in the United States on March 23, 2018, by Bleecker Street and Soderbergh's production companyFingerprint Releasing.

Premise[edit]

Sawyer Valentini, a bright but troubled business woman, begins to find out that her past is catching up to her when a former hospice patient's son starts to stalk her. To ensure her safety, Sawyer signs up for a support group that helps people tackle stalking problems. Unfortunately, Sawyer finds out that she has involuntarily placed herself in a mental institution with strict rules that there should be no contact with the outside world. Alone and trapped against her will, Sawyer must fight her own demons within the twisted asylum as the visions of her stalker begin to take over.














***I have yet to see this movie. Many schizophrenics do not want to watch Unsane because it highlights the abuses that have happened and continue to happen in mental hospitals. The movie could be a trigger to us or simply upset us. The screenwriter, James Greer, does not have a mental illness so what does he know? I wonder if screenwriters eavesdrop and frequent websites and blogs like mine to pick our brains. I am putting my story out there and I would like credit for MY STORY. In my story, the protagonist is flawed but likeable. At least the mentally ill character is not the villain in my story, unlike so many other stories. The villains are my old classmate/stalker, his wife, and their creepy friends who practice Santeria!  In Unsane, the protagonist has no contact with the outside world. When I was in a mental institution (5150) I still could have visitors and phone calls. Unsane has a few fantasy elements, or out of touch with reality elements, for sure.

There is a scene in Unsane where the protagonist is strip searched in the hospital. This is actually accurate. My clothes were taken from me, including my underwire bra, for "safety reasons." I was given a hospital gown to wear. Because I have a major mental illness and was off my medication, I was also physically held down to get Abilify Maintena shots in my rear end. They did not trust me to swallow my medication.  I was not even resisting and they physically restrained me. This was executed by a male doctor, of course. That is a God-awful memory that I will never forget.  One thing that Unsane misrepresents is that psychiatrists in real life have a confidentiality agreement with their patients. It is unethical to reveal what is said in therapy. A psychiatrist could lose their license for this. 

I also believed I had a stalker, at the time of my hospitalization. I believed the voices I was hearing in the hospital were from my stalker's wife/enemies hexing me though. I knew my stalker was not in the hospital with me, which was a relief of sorts. To this day, I believe that I am being stalked by two different men. I do not feel flattered by it though. They just drive through my neighborhood and look at me. The two stalkers are very different. One stalker I have feelings for. The other one is a classic, creepy, mean stalker. He is an old acquaintance. I can't say that I have strong enough feelings to hate him but I am not attracted to him or flattered by him. He is also married, with a child. So, basically, he is a classic creep.

**I know it sounds like I am giving Keith a pass for stalking. I understand the seriousness of stalking and I am not using my mental illness as a pass for taking this subject lightly. I do not know what to call what these men are doing to me. I have no real case against them either. Unfortunately they are free to drive past me and my children, if that is all they are doing. I am sorry if the way I am speaking about stalking offends you.

*** I will think of a better word for what I am experiencing if I have to make it up myself. I changed my mind. I hate Tony Meister (the mean stalker) and his clueless wife for spying on me and trying to compare his life to mine. Get over me and stay out of San Diego! I have a hard time understanding why anyone's wife would let their husband travel to the neighborhood of a woman who they used to crush on to spy on them. It makes no sense to me. In 1998, Tony Meister raped me, right before I left LA to move to San Diego. He was never my boyfriend so I never had sex with him prior to that. He was the worst male I ever hung out with. He was always so mean to me. He was not a gentleman. He never took me out on a date but he would always try to hook up with me. I thought we were friends and then he raped me. I am scared of him. Why is he driving around my neighborhood? I saw him just yesterday in Leucadia. He is such a complete idiot. 






paradox







NOUN

  • 1A seemingly absurd or contradictory statement or proposition which when investigated may prove to be well founded or true.
    ‘the uncertainty principle leads to all sorts of paradoxes, like the particles being in two places at once’
I heard this word used in a sentence today and realized that I did not know the definition of it, so I looked it up. After reading the definition of paradox, I concluded that my psychosis will always be a paradox to me. I added Keith as a friend on Facebook. I contacted him and started making posts about him. This had to have irked his wife. I know this irked his wife. I believe her and her friends started hexing me shortly afterwards. I believe in magic and magic has never been disproven to me.  No one can disprove magic. You may say this notion is absurd because I was already diagnosed schizoaffective, so I would hear voices anyway.  How could I ever prove that the voices in my head were from these individuals? All I can say is we will never know because no one bothered to investigate. I stay out of Santa Cruz and away from Keith. I have not contacted him since 2014 and the voices have since dissipated. I am grateful for that, even if it is only because my hexers finally grew up and got busy with their own lives. My account of events will always remain a paradox to me. 

A paradox that makes me question my delusion is wondering how Keith could be in Carlsbad when he is a busy doctor with a wife in Santa Cruz. Every time I go on Facebook, I see pictures of him grinning with his wife in Santa Cruz. Is he happily married and loving life in Santa Cruz or not? He is the crazy one in this scenario though! 

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

It must be a sign or something. I see the middle finger, do you? LOL Wait...which finger was Jerry Garcia missing???
I also see a penis and two faces looking at each other in the top right corner.