People are too jealous of me to be my friend. Everything has changed or come to light that is. I was invited to celebrate my friends birthday last night and going to see the movie Wicked with her and another friend. I have not been feeling well at all due to being hexed. I was not interested in watching this particular movie. It’s not my cup of tea. I find Ariana Grande to be annoying. I always have. I did get irritated when I got there and saw that the movie was over 2 1/2 hours long!! Why did they have to make the Wicked movie so long? Couldn’t they condense the plot and move it along? I also wondered if the film pick was chosen to mess with me or make a point to me, in some way. I don’t need to watch a cheesy movie about imperfect people and imperfect friends. I know who I am. I’m realistic about myself. I also know who my friends are and how jealousy can paint how they see me and treat me, so I just have to shrug off any weirdness or bad vibes they send my way. I also think they may be going along with someone else’s ideas to set me up. They could be influenced or peer pressured by a person or persons outside of our group. Anyway, I had been running on empty because I had insomnia the night before and I had no chance to catch up on my sleep. So I was cranky by the time I got to the movie. I felt slapped in the face as soon as I got to the movie because my friend who I had known for so long was being her worst self. She was jealous, competitive, and sneaky. She gaslights. She intentionally tries to hurt my feelings and then lies about it when she literally just went out of her way to hurt my feelings. I hate feeling the jealousy of others. It’s very triggering for me. She can be such so jealous and competitive. That’s how I read her. It makes me think she is speaking from a jealous place alit when she speaks to me. It makes me very uncomfortable. I also have issues trusting her because she doesn’t take accountability for anything she does. She thinks she’s perfect and I am the problem. Trey and her are trying to make me jealous. I don’t want him. He’s an asshole! You can have him! Trey and she want me to believe that they are sneaking around together and having an affair. Why must you toy with me? Why are you trying to hurt me and drive me crazier than I already am? I have enough problems but you can’t see that. I hate the efforts you all are making to upset me. Narcissists! I am funny. You are not. Who is amused by your asshole behavior? You are cruel! Have fun gossiping about me behind my back and conspiring against me. You are shitty people! I am better off without you! Now you will have more time to suck up to each other. You know someone is jealous of you and secretly hates you when they compliment everyone else but you! Hater! Ha! I am a great friend so don’t try to tell me that I need to step it up. You are the one that needs to figure out how to keep your jealousy in check and be kind to me. I hate friends who are so consumed with jealousy that they can’t see your troubles and sympathize with your situation! Have you forgotten what I am dealing with? Quit playing dumb! With friends like these, who needs enemies?
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