Tuesday, August 13, 2019

I found these on a mental health Facebook group and these are great!
It is easier said than done! Today I will not focus on distracting men. IE. doctors and rock stars. I don't want that kind of pressure to be rail thin, stay young and hot forever, in order to keep my man. (Who everyone else wants)

That is not reality anyway. I am married to a super smart chemist who is kind to me and he is a great dad! Yah! Focus!
This is the car I thought was sending me a message on my walk today or perhaps they were stalking me. The license plate says "Kallesi." LOL They spelled it wrong. How embarrassing!







I saw this meme tonight and thought that I would share here. The mem isn't super funny but it explains psychosis a bit. Basically, psychosis is a confusing, muddled mess. I noticed that the negative hallucination/delusion picture is from the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. Now the Real Housewives franchise is crazy, but I watch it. I hope to never interact with women like that. I would avoid them like the plague, in fact, but I will watch them on t.v. I have to admit that this guilty pleasure may be bad for my mental health. It is just so negative and it stresses me out when they start fighting!



These tips below are a great reality check to anyone having psychosis as well as anxiety. I never have actually done these steps. I never even heard of this, but I know that reality checks are good and necessary for me.


Friday, August 9, 2019

Why should I ever take a picture again? From now on, I am only sharing what my cool avatar is up to. :)










I tried flying away to other places. I tried prayer and speaking with priests. At one point my brother recommended Exorcism. I even considered that. One thing and one thing only stopped or greatly reduced the voices. Thank you Vraylar!  Don’t forget to take your meds!

Thursday, August 8, 2019

It's hard to lose your mind when you didn't have much of one to begin with

I used to think of myself as a clever, thoughtful child. I studied and got good grades. But in 7th grade I started smoking dope. I did not smoke daily though. Smoking pot was the occasional social thing. But my experimentation spread to other drugs.

I never gave my brain a chance. I started killing brain cells and altering my brain chemistry in junior high. This drug use continued until after college. I often wonder what I could have achieved scholastically and career-wise without those crutches.

I do not think marijuana is good for much. I still blame drugs for my mental illness. I did, however, purchase some CBD massage oil. I rubbed some on my aching back today...and boy was my back turned on! On a serious note, I did feel numbness on my lower back. It may have masked the pain for a few hours. So CBD may good for something! I am giving CBD (at least the massage oil) the chance to do something beneficial for me.


Some guy from Iowa stole my title/story that I wanted to make into a movie. I have never heard of him but he doesn't have mental illness and does not know what the hell he is talking about. It looks super stupid! I should sue! This is my title/story/etc.  I knew this would happen. I can't get a break.


https://www.imdb.com/title/tt5950596/
Oh no! Don’t do this for a photo. I hope you are having a great summer!

https://cbsloc.al/2M71k4K