Don't be a fool on April Fools Day! Has anyone not seen this yet? People with children probably have. Hey, at least I didn't post the Baby Shark Doo Doo Doo video.
My son keeps watching McDonald's commercials in different languages on YouTube. He loves McDonald's Happy Meals and loves watching their commercials. The bright side to this is that there is a chance he is learning Spanish/Mandarin etc. from these commercials.
I am trying to hypnotize you into eating McDonald's french fries and cheating on your diet here. Unfortunately, it is I that is craving french fries now.
Someone just warned me that rock stations might be going country tomorrow. Please don’t do that. I hate April Fools Day!
Thursday, March 28, 2019
Ok so this has nothing (really) to do with my mental health journey. I just loved being a child of the 80's. (I watched too much t.v. though!) Remember these classic t.v. commercials from the 1980's? Which one was cuter? It is a close call!
I can totally relate to this video! Been there, done that! My illness kicks in when I start thinking I am famous too, while watching this! I am not a celebrity but I understand and empathize with everything that she is saying! I put my blog out there, but I do not know of ANYONE I know that actually read this. None of my friends or family know or care about my blog. I mean, they are not interested. Whitney Port was on a reality show, The Hills, for many years. So, that figures into her insecurities when she meets new moms. Do they know me from The Hills? Do they like or dislike me because I am a reality star? I guess that I am grateful to be an anonymous non-celebrity because it is a simpler life. Whitney Port seems like a sweet girl, maybe more introverted, like me. I am not big on smiling at or chatting up strangers. That is just out of my comfort zone. Unfortunately, not everyone you meet will become a friend. Women/moms really do need to be nicer to each other though.
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
I joke a lot, on my blog, to show that people living with mental illness have hearts, souls, and funny bones, like everyone else. Then I hear serious stories of mental illness/psychosis that stop me dead in my tracks. A woman, living in San Diego, had severe self-harm command hallucinations from psychosis, and inadequate emergency medical care, leading her to gouge her own eye out while at Sharp Grossmont Hospital. Although this situation may be out of the ordinary, it should be a wake up call to the public at large. We need compassionate people in government to go to bat for us. We need to speak and educate about mental illness. We need to protect our mentally ill population. We need funding for better mental emergency care, better training of medical staff, and far better medical attention than is currently available. We cannot brush the mentally ill population under the rug! We have to take care of them!
Individuals suffer from mental illness worldwide. Today, when I saw a news video in which a naked man attempted to board a plane in Russia, I sympathized with the man. I knew that he must be mentally ill and I have been there. I took a few random flights while psychotic. I did not cause a commotion, like this man though. Fortunately, I kept my clothes on!
My voices were not commanding me to do anything super bizarre or dangerous. The voices did mess with me by telling me to fly to unfamiliar places and insulting me throughout the flights. Eventually, I realized not to listen to the voices, as they were just trying to mess with me.
Now they just basically torture me with insults, when they surface, but it is less severe than it was. Fortunately, I am feeling much better than I was during those flights. I hope the man from this news story, accepted help from his local mental hospital, and got back on a medication regimen!
Today I learned that there is a new horror movie out now, "Us," which was filmed in Santa Cruz. This peaked my interest. In my story, "The Voices," a few of the villains hail from Santa Cruz also. “Us" director, Jordan Peele, explores race, class, and privilege, in his new movie.
My movie, "The Voices," would not be that deep, but I think my movie should still be made. My psychotic voices are anger and hate turned inward, so I agree with Peele's point to look inward and take a look at yourself when exploring evil. My story could be viewed as racist. It is being told from the perspective of a white “technically” (1/2 Italian 1/2 Irish) woman. If I were not on the receiving end of malicious magic, If I were lying or mistaken, this story would be a racist attempt to blame my bad luck and bad health on a very nice, innocent Venezuelan family. This is a true story though. This is one of the most shockingly unbelievable true stories ever told. I believe that my story should be told. Peele stole my idea of exploring evil in Santa Cruz. There is a lot of it there as far as I am concerned. Oh well.
I will say that I am not convinced that the voices I am hearing are purely psychotic. There remains the possibility that some mad Venezuelans are out to get me, at the whims of Keith's jealous and insecure wife. Harmful magic is scary. The annoying thing about this film is that it discredits witchcraft. That is not a fun or gripping horror movie, that I would want to watch. Where there is smoke, there is fire. I say, bring on more movies about evil witches and harmful magic!
Sunday, March 24, 2019
I guess Trent Shelton is a motivational speaker, of sorts. I like this video and can definately identify with it. Many people make the initial snap judgement not to like me, based on first impressions. I do not like everyone I meet, nor I do consider everyone a friend. I spent so long, having basically, no friends. I am grateful for the friends that I have. I get irritated with my friends, I feel rivalry, jealousy, judgement for them. But they are still my friends. I love my friends and want our friendships to last.
