Federica: Stupid bitch! You are getting so mixed up. You are not schizoaffective! We are hexing you, so be forewarned. You keep telling people that you are schizoaffective for sympathy. What is really happening is that you are a home wrecker and we are hexing you for that reason. You deserve no sympathy. So what are you thinking of doing about Keith Spellman? You are my enemy so be forewarned! It’s not a curse, it’s a hex! We are practicing black magic! Just say it! We are practicing black magic on you, so be forewarned!

Rough night. The voices are aggravating me again! 

Best bumper sticker

Here drink this! The wine of the week!

I would rather listen to Carlos!

Feeling the anger of others...

Federica: Having a bad day because the Latina checker at Vons was looking at you funny? See how we feel? We are not African-American! We are Venezuelan-American, but we stand with them.

Lame! She is angry because she felt racial tension. You exude racism with your blog. Quit blaming the voices in your head on us! She has probably read your blog and knows that you are racist against Latinos! This is the perfect opportunity to tell you exactly how she feels about you and your blog, so be forewarned! 

People are angry with you, so be forewarned. I stand with the checker at Vons! 

Me: She was a ball buster!

Federica: You are so spoiled. You are far away from the protestors in white, La Costa. You know nothing about anger, oppression, discrimination, and violence, so be forewarned!

***I thought this would comfort the voices to know that I am actually a Neanderthal. They might get a kick out of this article. This is the reason I had so many children! LOL

https://phys.org/news/2020-05-women-neandertal-gene-birth-children.html?fbclid=IwAR3yUthjnnuhHMDDQONdkgvawRfYZ8XBfnfOEhPUAjmb34w0AQQIhA8inrQ

Federica: We are not amused, so be forewarned! Don't you see what is going on here? Idiot!

What’s next 2020?

This year is frightening! I heard a ruckus outside!

College

Boy, my parents must have been so relieved that I didn't go to UC Santa Cruz with all those hippies! SMH

I don't recognize anyone in this video. Well maybe the hippie baby in the park. There was really only one child living in Isla Vista, when I was there. I heard a rumor that the boy may have been smoking weed and more at a very young age. Sad!

Thinking about the murder of George Floyd...

Leigh: Your nose bled tonight, like George Floyd...only you bled, because you were picking your nose. Stupid bitch. You should post our jokes of you...the jokes that you are too embarrassed to share. George Floyd is your destiny, so be forewarned.

Federica: Stupid bitch. Your white privilege makes me sick, so be forewarned. You are our enemy, so be forewarned. You're being hexed, so be forewarned. You are racist, no matter how hard you try to deny it! I hate her so much, so be forewarned. You have blood on your shirt! Disgusting! You are not psychic. You are psycho. You are my enemy, so be forewarned!

Esteban: Esteban is here to say, that you are a moron, so be forewarned! 

Leigh: Get a life...away from Keith Spellman!

Federica: George Floyd is your destiny! That's not a veiled threat. That's just a threat! No one knows what we are doing and you can't prove it anyway! No one would EVER believe you, so just deal with our voices and don't push your luck! Ha Ha Ha!

I dream of kissing bandits too!

From the movie “Spellbound”

OMG I would never wear this!

Sharing

 I am sharing this short video, from the perspective of a child, who had a schizophrenic mother. She is complaining about how awful it was, of course.

I am a great mother, living with schizoaffective disorder, and quite sick of stories like this. Let me tell my own story, from the perspective of the person living with mental illness. Why doesn’t anyone read our stories or buy our books?

Do you believe that you have a soul mate?

If I do, I think he is lost.

He is definitely a surfer and a musician! I never hang out at the beach but I am sure he is there.

This was painful to watch

 I feel like I hated college. It wasn’t that great. It didn’t have a happy ending. I was lonely and homesick the whole time. The kids in Isla Vista were selfish and shitty. I didn’t form any close friends much less any life long friends. I didn’t date or meet my husband there. I struggled academically.  It sucked overall.

So I disagree with this song. Should I have gone to the beach more?  I wish I remembered more. Being the blackout drunk that I was, I really don’t remember having fun at all. Oh well!

Your light

Sometimes you need help and support to shine your brightest . If you don’t get that, you are just seen as a problem, and your light hardly shines at all. - anonymous 

Dumb & Dumber: G'day Mate (Intro Scene)

Leigh: You can’t have him and it drives you nuts, so be forewarned!

He’s mine and you can’t have him, so be forewarned!

Medical school? I met him while he was in medical school and I am not letting Keith Spellman go, so be forewarned!

Federica: How sad! It’s a competitive world and you are a loser, so be forewarned! You can’t have my friend’s husband! We hate you, so we are hexing you!

Esteban: Stupid bitch! Your jokes are far from funny, so be forewarned! That’s all we have to say...today.

Scary!

Here, wear this!

https://thehill.com/blogs/in-the-know/in-the-know/497888-german-restaurant-gives-patrons-hats-with-pool-noodles-to-keep?amp&fbclid=IwAR1KYAzZYlgH8pnJbmNTNsesOfb7XlPHYgyQPFsgeNdYCOTJrpAcer_ye48&__twitter_impression=true

Looking good!

Huh? Satan is not a woman.

https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/thrash-metal-drummer-awakens-coronavirus-154140928.html

A death metal drummers trip to hell.

It was too cold to cry, when I woke up alone.

Lurk my blog anytime

Wow! I wouldn’t go that far!

I wouldn’t go so far to say that quarantining with my husband is like being on acid or ecstasy, but it has been pretty harmonious. Kudos to all the couples out there who are getting along well during this time!

https://www.google.com/amp/s/people.com/tv/meghan-mccain-says-being-in-quarantine-with-husband-has-felt-like-marriage-on-acid/%3famp=true

Come on, San Diego! Get it together! I am social distancing.

No judgment here, just sympathy.

I am not a huge 90210 fan but I felt bad for Brian Austin Green when I read about this. He really loved Megan and still loves her. They have young children together. So sad!

I have to say that I have dealt with the same feelings she has. She is quite possibly having a mid-life crisis. She wants to be with someone she feels passionately about.  She wants to know that she is with her soul mate. She is probably confused and like Brian said, she is bored with him. Sad! 

She couldn't have picked a worse rebound. Does she really want to go back on the party/club scene as she approaches 40 years old and is a mother? I hope she goes back to Brian. His love seems real.

https://pagesix.com/2020/05/18/brian-austin-green-posts-cryptic-message-amid-megan-fox-split-rumors/

Love Melissa McCarthy! ❤️

Who is that behind Melissa playing the drums?

I am a mojito

Soul gazing sounds nice.

A woman wants to run away with him and this is what he says...

She is trying to tell him that she loves him and she wants to run away with him and he says this?

San Diego flyover saluting medical personnel!

Love surfers, but this guy...

I see a spider looking at me!

My daughter, the fantastic artist

Yesterday my daughter had an assignment to ask each of her family members who their spirit animal is or if you could be an animal, which one would you choose? Can you guess which one is me?

I know this much is true

I just watched the first episode. Mark Ruffalo did a great job. This is the male version of my story unfortunately. He is Italian, Catholic, and has religious delusions.  He is much more severely impacted than me though and with major mental deficits.

Watching this reminds me to be grateful that I am not worse off or locked in a mental institution. Things could be much worse! This movie is a great lesson in gratitude for me and a reminder to stay on my medication regimen.

What a good brother he is! I am grateful to my loving family too for all their help when I had an episode in 2014 and to this day. The strength of love has helped me in my darkest hours. Grateful to be feeling great today!

Grass

The grass is always greener on the other side
Maybe you would be happier with what you have already got - anonymous

Have you ever had a “lucky escape” when a relationship ended? I had one for sure! I did a little internet research on the one that got away. He has arrest records for speeding and reckless driving. I hate those kinds of drivers, and don’t want to be killed behind the wheel, so I dodged a bullet there.

No I am not interested in that kind of life...the life with lovers and dogs and fabulous vacations. That is not for me. 😂 

What is going on in my neighborhood tonight. Scary!

Not hating on this. #awesomewomen #letsbefriends

#friendshipgoals #letsmakeamusicvideo lol

Feeling sensitive today

Why is it ok to make fun of fat people? Try not to be so surface. Like Melania Trump says, “Be Better,” or something like that. lol

https://www.google.com/amp/s/theconversation.com/amp/big-belly-laughs-why-is-it-okay-to-laugh-at-fat-people-5329

Someone sent me this today and I was very offended. I may be overreacting but I might avoid Facebook for awhile.

Robin Williams talking about sobriety

I actually can relate to parts of this story very well!  😂 

What’s your problem?

Don’t look back Uncle Rico! Don’t look back.

Watch out for what is coming next

Chaos at Chik Fil A in Encinitas

2 examples of San Diego suburban graffiti

The tagger I Cry of Carlsbad is in the top photo and it looks like a little self help advice in the bottom photo. Weird!

Did I just see what I thought I saw?

May the Fourth be with you. So I am sitting here watching Star Wars: The Last Jedi and it cuts to a commercial. It is a Heineken commercial that I wasn’t really watching in the beginning but then the man in the commercial gets pulled over by a cop for speeding or something. He gets a ticket written for him by the cop. He then pulls a Heineken out of the cup holder and says cheers to the cop as he takes a swig of the Heineken. What a moronic and reckless commercial.

Did I just see what I thought I saw? What an irresponsible way to end a beer commercial?!

Who you calling fat? Not me!

Federica: Your mom-tourage are all fat, so be forewarned. (Witch cackle)

Me: Screw you! My friends and I are beautiful inside and out and I didn’t have to put a friendship or love spell on anyone to attract them. So there! Speaking of becoming a mother, what is holding you back? Are you afraid that you will give birth to a demon?

I think horrible thoughts about those who I believe are hexing me. If I followed their superficial social media posts I would have plenty of ammunition. I mean, I hated them first really. I don’t want to be perceived as merely playing the victim. I fear posting some of the things they say to me because I want to protect my loved ones and I don’t want any of my friends to get their feelings hurt either. This may just be my cry for help here. I am keeping notes and keeping score. Hopefully people will realize what is happening here and help me. I want my hexers stopped and punished for harassment. One day justice will be served.

If only I could have a glam squad every day!

Chill song

The official video made me dizzy, so I didn’t post that. The  singers voice reminds me of my internal voices, if their tone sounded nicer and not  snarky. The lyrics talk about voices and the subject matter seems to be slightly depressing self -talk, but I still like this song and can definitely relate. Either directly or through my voices do I try to put myself in check, when I get carried away.

Great! I am staying inside forever!

https://www.google.com/amp/s/earther.gizmodo.com/great-now-invasive-murder-hornets-are-a-thing-to-worry-1843220037/amp

Who is this young woman?

I never finished watching Tiger King, but there is a Tom Cruise marathon on AMC right now that I am enjoying!

This couple is haunting me!

I think that I know them. They seem familiar. Ugh!

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.nbcsandiego.com/news/local/search-for-couple-stunning-bioluminescence-pic-shows-pair-enjoy-electric-blue-waves-in-la-jolla/2317063/%3famp

Farmer joke (not for the faint of heart)

I am such a great nature photographer!

And don’t forget this! The worst graffiti ever from a tagger named CRY? This looks like it was done by a 5 year old.