God Isn’t My Co-Pilot

 At least God wasn’t in the drivers seat today. He may have been watching from a distance though. It felt more like the devil was my pilot there for a second. Evil E took the wheel away from me today for a minute. It’s one of those sneaky things that he does against my will, if he sees an opportunity and thinks he can get away with it.  I was driving with my daughters out to Oceanside. We were going to drive out to Kohls in San Marcos. The freeway was jam packed so we got off at the next exit. (Poinsettia Ln) I realized I was in the wrong lane and I wanted to take Paseo Del Norte. I said that out loud so it was clear that would have been better. Then I figured, I can just drive up to Aviara parkway and take it to Palomar Airport to get to El Camino Real. I knew the alternate way to go to get to the 78. I think I left my body for a second when the light turned green. Evil E grabbed the wheel and yanked me into the turn lane to turn left when there were other cars there. I didn’t even realize what was happening until it happened. I almost hit other cars in the turn lane.  I feel like Evil E did that though. It wasn’t me. It was so weird!  But again because I said out loud that I wanted to go that way, It looked like I was going to break the law and do something reckless to get my way. I was going to do whatever the hell I wanted to do. He does like to blame his impatience, temper, and selfishness on me. That’s Evil E in a nutshell. I definitely feel and experience all of those emotions naturally too. He is trying still to paint me as this ruthless careless home wrecker. This all began because Trey was thinking about me and wanting to see me. He was distracted from his wife from nothing I did to trigger that. It was just memories and experiences from college days. When he would come down here with Maeve to visit her crazy cousins, he was obviously tempted to go drive past me while he was down here. Everyone thinks that I am lying. I have not touched or talked to this man since college. I am not withholding anything  here  either. You can’t believe that a man would leave his wife without having an affair first? I should have told him years ago what they were doing. He obviously didn’t care enough to leave her and his family still doesn’t care about her being a witch. Treys sister thinks it’s “cool.” Is Maeve so cool for pulling off this hex for 10 years and no one has ever been able to stop her? Love spells obviously don’t work. I knew he was going to leave eventually. It was only a matter of time. Why go to the extreme to keep someone who didn’t want to stay? She never hexed him. She was playing Miss Perfect to him and to everyone she knew. Wow! I should have told him the deal 10 years ago! We could have gotten this show on the road sooner! I wonder if she’s hexing him now that he’s left her? Crazy!