I took my daughters to El Coyote restaurant in Old Town a few weekends ago and as we were walking in and sitting down, another restaurant patron yelled “Check please!” I thought I heard some people laughing. It is freaking other people out, especially if you are superstitious. No one needs this kind of additional stress in their lives. Many people think that I am a home wrecker who deserves every bit of this revenge mental abuse. This judgemental mindset and mockery is making my situation even worse. Nothing has gotten any better in 10 years. No one is communicating with me about any sort of help I may receive, People are just making jokes, acting like they could care less, or looking at me with hate filled eyes. Part of the problem is that Santeria isn’t a huge problem in Carlsbad. Very little is known about this and there is no specific law to prevent, end, or prosecute this. How much time, can one person serve for general criminal mischief? Another cause of ignorance to my situation is that no one can relate or have knowledge about what I am experiencing mentally, unless they have heard voices before. At the very least, this a 10 year psychotic break, that continues endlessly dragging me through this same story every day. It is Groundhog Day for me every day. I have been trying to get help and get through to people this whole time, but their reactions are not what I expected or hoped for. Because of my schizoaffective disorder diagnosis, no one believes the story I am telling. The voices in my head are just a byproduct of my mental illness. My mental illness is not a mild one either, it’s the most debilitating mental illness someone could be diagnosed with. I am just a medication-resistant schizoaffective woman, right? Apparently, the medication is not working for me! The abusive voices and the delusion of being targeted and hexed are classic textbook experiences resulting.from stubborn, treatment-resistant psychosis. On the other hand, if hexing is possible and powerful, it is the perfect form of attack, spying, and mental abuse that may never be fully realized, proven, or punished. Evil E has been getting away with this for 10 years now and I am so sick of this!
On the flip side, I sometimes sense that people have read my story and they identify me, as the person at the center of this. Yes, I am involved in some crazy shit because I was tempted to do something with someone that would cause harm to their romantic relationship and family. Mate poaching is a prosecutable offense in other states but thankfully not in California. Everyone is clinging to their partner more tightly, when they see me. The potential of being hexed or being the victim of a crime of passion is scaring people into staying with their original partners. I think the consensus now, is having an affair or dumping someone for someone out there, that you think is better, is dangerous! Just stick with your original partner, it’s not worth the headache!
The joke that I heard while I was at the Pancake House this morning (don’t food or fat shame me for that) is referring to my situation as “The Latin Mission Impossible.” Take note, if this hex was investigated, it could possibly help the U.S. foresee potential attacks and get into the minds of opposing political leaders around the world. It’s easy espionage, without having to leave the United States! Let’s just go with that idea for the sake of our country’s safety! Just kidding for my sake! That’s all! Help me!
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